the first time..

Warm hands..touchin me..
warm heart ..beat in me..
love sparkle, fire, thunder inside...
first time I met your eyes..
first time I saw the real you..
love thoughts ... runnin wild..
happy, laughing...eyes give strength..
first time my hand was in yours...
lightly and soft ..the skin is hot..
you want ...I smile.. lovin for the first time...

this Girl can dance..

hey hoe!

Look I dont CARE what anybody else think of me as a person..If you aint like what you see or feel from me..then just move ON!!! life is just to dayumn short.. so stop waste both of our expensive time..
I belive if you belive that you are honest and real and kind then fuck what other thinks..
And to get access to the closest part of my heart and soul youve gotta catch me first,, then I will let you in..and if you think my outside and my personality I show in the open air is attractive..then you hell gonna love this part..
now some swedish people who read this gonna twist their heads look like that freakin posessed bitch in The Exorcist...cause its bad to like ya self..and to belive that you are a great person from inside out... Swedish people have this idea.."you are not gonna belive that you are something big or great"..
so what you gonna do about it? sit there with ya head spinnin ..LOL

hunk of the day ... the Jigga of the late eightees...lol

the old school rapper..Big Daddy Kane.. also from Brooklyn:) it must be some special about those BK men..

I have decide

To sell my LapTop ... cause I need some extra cash..:) and my friend Micke is going to buy it:D
I hope he will be as pleased as I have been with it:D

EGO

A is for age: 28
B is for booze of choice: booze and good drinkz..maybe some crystal and corona:)
C is for career: Iam gonna be rich...
D is for your dad's name: Bosse
E is for essential items to bring to a party:A happy mood and MYSELF!!!
F is for favourite song at the moment: This is why Iam hot!!!!
G is for favourite game: TEKKEN
H is for home town: the big E,..LMAO
I is for instruments you play:I can play on ya BODY!
J is for jam or jelly you like: love it jelly shots! and jam :strawberry,,,
K is for kids: I have 2 want 3 more at least...
L is for living arrangements: got a big apartment
M is for mother's name: Christina
N is for name of your crush: just say that whats a crush?
O is for overnight hospital stays: got a few.. most like 10 dayz when I had my first baby...
P is for phobias: doesnt like bugs
Q is for quotes you like: My family is my blood and my friends are my family
R is for relationship that lasted the longest: my biggest girls dad.. like 6 years..
S is for sartorial style: I have what I have..Iam what Iam.. Iam gonna be who Iam gonna be
T is for time you wake up: when I feel 4 it..
U is for underwear: thongs and not
V is for vegetables you love: all...:)
W is for weekend plans: gettin all shitty and find someone to give me money:D
X is for x-rays you've had: my whole body.. most my ribs though
Y is for yummy food you make: I can cook all.. spezialties are mexican..and italian and some Thai..
Z is for zodiac sign: Iam A GEMINI baby.. inside out:DDD

damm DAMM DAMM

what kinda man takes a 4 year old girl out in a car trip without this safety chair and belt for kids?
what man doesnt wanna see his daughter alone when they meet for the first time in sevral weeks?
what stupied ass man takes a hoe with him? and tells his daughter this is my friend.. I live with her??????????????????????
Yes I can admit it do feels bad cause he have her...I feel like he spit on my face .. that what we had never excisted and never meant a shit to his sorry little ass..
MY baby is not gonna go with a car wich driver I dont even know have a licsence for to drive... SHE wasnt safe..and that makes me MOST angry of all...
that he doesnt care about his own flesh and blood.. It feels like a KNIFE in my heart...
It feels like ...he have hurt her so BADLY! and he get away with it...
My daughters are my heart and I will do ANYTHING to protect them from danger..
why the hell is he this way??
fuckin a hoe, being a stupied ass little pussy..and makin my daughter not being his most important attention..
WHY THE HELL IS HE STILL HERE??????????????

LOSE MY MIND with YoungBuck..best song on his new CD..

Yeah man is like I don't been to so much man I don't see so much shit out here man, all this material shit this shit don't mean a shit to me man, No its like I didn't do so much man I aint got no shit to show for man, no fuck the world man, no Buck the world, yeah Buck the world I like that, yeeaah
Everybody trying to KILL me I don't have no friends I bought myself in this mothafucking Benz Don't u DISS me, nothings going right and yeah I wanna fight So im jumping in the night u gonna RESPECT me I don't wanna talk my nerves bad and I having suicide on thoughts Somebody WATCHING me I can feel the heat who ever in here is scared I can hear they heart beat and they are not STOPPING me Im out of control like a nigga locked up then just got out of the hole What the DO TO ME, put me in this game give me all this fame And expect for me to change my fucking mind
U mothafuckas don't know me (lets go) U mothafuckas don't know me (yeeah) U mothafuckas don't know me (come on) U mothafuckas don't know me
I am not going to jail, we gonna smoke our weed We don't need no help, u don't wanna fuck with me I do not tell, ya wont get enough, Im from the neighbourhood where we thought our first, put you out of my way, I had a bad day My brother wouldn't die if I had my AK, ya don't feel me I am on the edge, so when I woke up on the wrong side on the bed U don't love me, u just like my call and if im ever with broke u find another star, don't u touch me, I don't need a wife I love my lil girl but her momma needs a life

MY babys with my siss and her B/F...

new work

today Iam going to my new work looking and see if I wanna have it..
Its retarded people who live in a group home..
I love working with people..its to bad its the worst pay ever.. but this time iam gonna work for a company who hire me and they in their turn let the boss for this job hire me from them.. so its gonna be like a little more not much though.. lol
Sweden the only country who dont appriciate work who involves old and sick...they have the worst pay ever.. those who stand behind a machine all day got the best pay check every month..
thats a sick community?!!!!!

summernights.. i love you when you call me big poppa

THIS is zummer 4 me! biggie doin his JUICY!

WISE WORDS (from Tupac

YOU GOTTA MAKE A CHANGE ..ITS TIME FOR US AS PEOPLE TO START MAKING SOME CHANGES..,LETS CHANGE THE WAY WE EAT, LETS CHANGE THE WAY WE LIVE AND LETS CHANGE THE WAY WE TREAT EACHOTHER...
YOU SEE THE OLD WAY WASNT WORKIN SO ITS ON US , TO DO WHAT WE GOTTA DO TO SURVIVE...

think about that people..

SMACK MY PUNANE!!!!!

DIE ALONE (poem by me..

been lookin in ya eyes ..scared to die..
I know we are all gonna frie..
seing ya fear..wanna push it all away..
wish I could make you well make ya stay..
been reachin out my hand for years..
but the only thing we shared was tears..
I dont wanna hold ya hand any more..I wanna give it all up..
I dont wanna stay by ya side ..I dont wanna hang til ya die..
This is for sure...Your life could have been so much more..
lookin at ya homies where are they now?are they at ya side?
ya still sayin that they will be here until ya die...
I know ya lie...cause that big pride..
You gotta die all alone.. like a hurt animal in the wood...
You still the worst dogg I meet in tha hood..
SO bye bye.. you said it before..
now its my words and my heart like the core...
sittin in the middle with a lots of parts..
Now my new life starts..

IF YOU WANNA..

smell or eat this hot shyte punane..you've gotta work it.. you've gotta earn it!
DAMM I aint gonna spread my self givin all of my beutiful punane for free .. MAYBE in your dreamz MR....
So to all swedish men... DATING is a word dont just use it.. live it up ,work ya ass off;) make us gurlz feels like ya queen..
I have always felt like swedish men are just too stiff and non passionated ..I dont belive I eva been on a real date with a swedish man..
So what do I consider a real date? well being invited, and treated like a real woman.. Then where the dates at doesnt mather I aint like a brat just wanna the best.. I will be satisfied with a simple dinner if the company can behave..thats wassup..

1 hella good CD..I really recommend it!! MY best buy in ages!!

So this in NYC style?? huh?? well ME LIKE!!

SUNDAY DINNER....

I LOVE THIS IN THE SUMMER

• ICE
• WATER
• SUNGLASSES
• NAILPOLISH ON TOE NAILS
• BODYSCRUB
• AC
• ESCADA SUMMER EDITION
• POPSICLE
• DIET COKE
• BBQ FOOD
• SUN TAN LOTION/SPRAY

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this is summer for ME!!! summer and SEX!!!!!

wise words

SHUT UP! or I will slap ya face!!!! or kick you butt so my shoe will end up stuck!!!

hunk of the day ...

Birdman is so sexxxxxxxxxxy..DAMMMMMMMM!!!

beyonce again..

This day

Have we been out allday long.. we took some lunch with us.. walked very long... went to some horses and my baby was all excited..
Iam all red from the sun my face is burnin..lol..
YES Iam very white and I do get red.. sometimes I dont even get brown..I take help from my suntan spray.. and thats the best damm thing I know.. who wanna be all white all the summer?? I get my freckles and all but I wanna be very tanned... so then its the only thing tan on lotion or spray the compliment..
Some are born with the natural colour who I belive looks more healthy and its so much more beutiful then being all white ...
The bad things about lotion or spray.. you easily get orange and look like you are a freaking alien or something..LOL

BABY

there was a time ..
there was a place..
when I close my eyes I still see ya face..
you took my bones..
smashed them under ya feet..
you through my heart in the fire..
I can still feel tha heat..
You burned me beliving I was away..
But I will be here darlin I will always stay..
If you see through your mind and soul..
Its me who have digged the deepest hole...
Baby I tell you one more time...
You are always gonna be mine...

BEYONCE...

FRIDAY 13

is my baby girlz 4th birthday!!!! and YEAH she had her party all day...dear mommy is all whiped out and tired as hell..
The kids had a super day.. Her big family all have come with gifts and to celebrate her...
DAMM she is 4...
I cant belive its been 4 years ago since I was in labour it took 45 min from the first pain until she was out.. she was in hurry!
And the pain was nothing I could easily do it again and again and again...
Kids are wonderful and Esmeralda is so beutiful.. she is my angel..

ON MY WISH LIST

words

somebody told me love is for life..
somebody told me that his heart was mine..
somebody told me that I should never be afraid..
somebody told me he was gonna forever stay..

I have learn that his love wasnt enough..
he didnt mean he was my true match..
he maked me scared of him and the love I felt..
He disappeared to never return to my place..

Love can happen once or twice ..
the only thing that mathers is here and now..
the future is tomorrow the past is yesterday..
today you feel the love today you wanna stay..

all TUPAC fans..check out this...I couldnt put in tha video sorry

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F9Y8MDAfN4o

Its warm!!

the sun is shining and the weather is warm...people walking around with their sun-glasses and look like big flies,,lol..
Iam inside doin tha laundrey..but Iam gonna go out and walk my round havin some good music in my ears and just walkin and chillin..
Those days I really wished I had this big house with a big garden.. otherwise Iam a big-city girl livin in an apartment..

WISE WORDS

AT LEAST PULL MY HAIR WHEN YOU RIDE MY BOOTY!!

hunk of the day ...

HE look good..he have a voice like an male angel..and his face is everywhere these dayz..

AKON!!!

1 word to describe you

SEXXY

Asses are a beutiful thing!! the baddest bitch do it good!!! love her:)

BELIVE!!!! HUGE flashback for me..lol

POEM

Brighter then the sun...
harder then the stone..
higher then the sky...
warmer then the fire..
deeper then the sea..
thats how gigantic my love is for you...

Today

Iam gonna go power walking for 2 hours or less..lol.
The laundrey in the bathroom is rising its gettin more and more for every day even though I wash like 10 machines/week.. I hate it! If I were a millionaire I would never do tha laundrey..either hire someone in who could do it..or..buy new clothes when the old was dirrty...damm Iam such a cash sucker!
So out we go..
BYE BYZ

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Now when its spring

My body and brain feels like its time for long partys with BBQ and good friends... alot of flirting during summer nights:) if you are singel.. DAMM I wanna have someone..who love me for me.. every part every inch without me have to change!!!
Iam gonna come up with some great drinkz recipie and then Iam gonna fix this giant party when Its my 29th B-day and have those:))))
Iam going to have a dress code and all... Diddy's partys gonna seem old compare to mine LMAO!!!!
so watch up for that invitation.. if u are good lick ass then you will have one automatic..lol

Lady sov.. the new video...I like her a girl with attitude!!!

hunk of the day ...

yeah you got it MIMS!!!! damm you look like 1 ex of mine..

WISE WORDS

GIRLS THAT FAKE ORGASMS ARE REALLY STUPIED.. WHO FAKE ANYTHING THAT BEUTIFUL INSTEAD OF LIE THAT YOU HAVENT GOT ONE SO YOU CAN HAVE MORE??????????????????????

ITS my life biatch!

Iam so tired of people who are very curious about my life and have alot of oppinions on what I shall do and shall not do..
I can hear them out but in the end I do what the hell I wanna!! The classic thing is people who aint got no kids gonna tell me how to raise mine.. thats hillarious:D I just give them the finger and ask them to move on...
Yeah I have attitude, but what can I say if I didnt my life would be livin hell right now..
Yes I will have attitude too all in the future ...1 chance.. if someone make me feel bad its the highway!
So here's for ya !!!! ITS MY LIFE BIATCH...keep on movin forward!

maybe its just the spring...

but i feel the LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LIFE IS ALL ABOUT

LOVE.. love it was make people keep going, love is the reason for peoples belives ..love is the cause of war.. love is the reason to why people get greedy..its their love for money...
love is the most beutiful thing in the world..but also the most ugly thing if it goes wrong..
The line between love and hate are thin as the line between genius and crazyness..
So the question is can you fall in love with people you havent meet? words? the look of another face? the first time you see someone? ..or does it takes alot of patience and many times of meetings before you can say surely thats love?

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BEST SONG SPRING -07

OH yeah!

Is it a crime 2 be happy today??? if thats the case call me GUILTY!!
and I will keep it to my self why Iam starting to feel like this..lol..
( now all of you gonna belive that I have been banged..but thats a NO) I promise I will share it with u if I get laid..!!!! cause thats a really BIG thang!

Whitney and Bobby and the daughter..story ends??

So the end of the story that started 14 years ago.. The 24 april is the marrige over also on the papers..

Whitney is gettin the daughter and Bobby will take it back to court ..he want the kid too..

Their marrige have never been good according to the media's ..filled with drugz, cheatin, abusing..

I think people have always blamed all on Bobby..but Whitney aint an angel.. they say he destroyed her carrier but she didnt do anything she didnt wanted.thats wassup!!

And I think noones better then the other..I hope they got to share costidy and keep them selves out of drama for the kids sake..

I get so angry

When I see all those people who get kids..and then they dont even take care of them..or they abuse them in certain wayz..
This is a big problem all those daddy's who's not caring for their kids..! wassup with that??? you cant blame it on the mother and say that she is arguing to much..
It takes two to tango!
as a parent you shall always put the kids before your self..no mather what!!
You cant always put on the responsibility on the mother abd relay on that she can take it all do it all ..
A real MAN doesnt put others through that shit and especially not their kids and their mothers!!

The first song I heard this morning on my MP3.. didnt find a video though only this LOL

Your Personality Is

Your Personality Is

Idealist (NF) You are a passionate, caring, and unique person. You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals. You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily. Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings. You seek out other empathetic people to befriend. Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships. In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily. At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career. With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone. As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style. On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours.

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What Tarot Card Are You?

You Are The Magician

You are powerful and wise - beyond what anyone can see. Deeply complex, you have the resources to connect to the spiritual and material world. You posses the knowledge to manipulate your life and the lives around you. You also have a great healing power, should you choose to use it. Your fortune: You have unhidden powers that you have yet to tap into. Soon, you will better understand how to use your intellect and intuition. Believe it or now, you will discover how you can manipulate yourself and others for good. You are at the beginning of a path of spiritual enlightenment.

What Tarot Card Are You?

DAMM BABY!!

I shake my ass like 5 inches from ya face..I spread my legs real wide..I touch my breasts.. I undress you with my eyes..Lick your neck.. spread my legs wider doin tha hot fuk dance.. beg you to cuff me.. you sit there with a smile on ya face.. you even taste like chocolate..

this is how my dreams are when I sleep in the afternoon..

The SLIDE SHOW!!!

I got the time

i think..lol..

this night

I didnt sleep much at all.. I was up chattin all late.. then I looked at some old dvd's and just chilled by myself..
It was so nice all quiet and dark and me and the lonelyness..
My strong painkillers I take for my fever and ache in my body caused by this damm tonsillitys maked my head spinn..
Today I woke up early.. and yes the time on the blog isnt match my set time here.. Iam gonna try to fix that.. lol

WISE WORDS

YOU CAN TAKE THE GURL FROM THA CORNER BUT YA CANT TAKE THA CORNER OUTTA THA GURL ..

Dont walk away ..

I've got all this love, waiting just for you
I just gotta know that your love is true
Can't keep running boy in and out my life
Wanna be your girl, not cause the mood is right
If I let you come inside, tomorrow will you hide
Will you be there for me, when I need someone to hold
Baby don't misunderstand,
I do want you for my man
I just need a little time, before I invest you my love
Don't walk away boy, my love won't hurt you
Don't walk away boy, I'll be right there for you
You said all the things that I like to hear
You push all my buttons baby love to have close to me
Wanna feel your love wanna be for sure
That itUs me you need baby each and every night
Baby don't misunderstand, I want you for my man
I need a little time before I give you my love
Don't walk away boy, I'll be right there for you
Don't walk away
This is what is sounds like when we make love Ohh ohh
Don't walk away Don't walk away boy, I'll be right there for you

Jason admit (((swedish rapper Timbuktu)))

Jason admit that he took cocaine on the toilet in a nightclub.. damm Jason are you stupied???? besides that he have admit other unlegal stuff that he didnt have to even say..
Jason sayz he regret that he took it and it was stupied to take it...hmm yeah maybe that time..lol.
I bet its not the first time he went to the toilet to take a sniff ... but this time someone catched him..
So what do I think? well I think it was stupied to admit it.. I think it was stupied to take it to ..its natural to try stuff and you should but everyone knows cocaine blow that brain away in the end...Its easy to get trapped in the cocaine rollercoaster.. and one thing lead to another..
But Jason a.k.a Timbuktu is still the cutest most intelligence dogg in tha game.. keep it up JASON !!

my favorite RADIO.. PARTY RADIO USA

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THE LIST

TEN Random Things About Me
10. I have the youngest child syndrome
9. I have 7 sisters
8. I wanted to be a vet when I was little
7. I listenedto Bob Marley as a kid..
6. I love mexican food
5. I wrote diary through all school years
4. I lost my virginity when I was 13
3. I am chubby or as they say in U.S..thick
2. My name means smart,wise, intelligence
1. I believe in Monagami

NINE Places I've Visited
9. London
8. Berlin
7. Madrid
6. Torledo
5. Copenhagen
4. Gotemburgh
3. Cambridge
2. Alicante
1. Potsdamm

EIGHT Things I want to do before I die
8. buy a big house
7. travel alot
6. get married
5. have a BIG family
4. get to work with something I like
3. be at peace with myself
2. earn alot of money
1. find true happiness

SEVEN Ways to win my heart
7. challenge me
6. have a good sense of humor thats nasty/naughty
5. trust me
4. not be possessive
3. intelligent
2. passionate
1. let me be free

SIX Things I believe in
6. God
5. we are destroying the earth
4. karma
3. my close friends
2. My mother
1. myself

FIVE Things I'm afraid of
5. the power of hatred
4. mother nature
3. ignorance
2. die before the kids are grown
1. weird diseases

FOUR of my Favorite Items in my bedroom:
4. my TV
3. my LapTop
2. the bed
1. my pillows

THREE Things I do everyday
3. drink water
2. shower
1. wonder what Iam going to do for the rest of my life

TWO Things I am trying not to do right now:
02. get well from this cold
1. write this..

ONE Person I want to see right now:
01.Tupac

hunk of the day ... is...

PETTER a swedish rapper who did great songs in the start of his carrier.. now he aint worth listening too..and I miss his old sound.. it was so special.. Petter was like the swedish Jay-z but they dont have any similair sound at all(noone can be like JIGGA..).. but they are both originallitys..
look at one of his old videos.. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pef2TINqXLc

me as a summerdoll..

after some thinking

Have I realized that right now Iam just so fuckin disappointed at my self and at all the men I have ever meet..
I dont care about him in that special way anymore, and I dont ever wanna him back.. For like a little moment I thought that everythings gonna be alright if we just get back together again..
But I know that he will NEVER change.. he CANT love me..he NEVER have loved me in the RIGHT way.. he DOESNT know how to LOVE...

Iam gonna continue this proceed.. Iam gonna get full costidy and Iam gonna keep him OUT and AWAY from me and the KIDS..

this man is a true psychopath..and he can act.. he play his game and he think Iam too stupied not to see it.. I have seen it all along but I have been to damm nice to that bastard....

now my life is gonna be more fun, more exciting,more sexy... JUST MORE!!!

pain and anger

iam feeling so angry but also so hurt...
The anger cause of what he have done and why he cant admit it..instead he lies..
I feel so hurt and my thoughts are going to did he never even felt love for me? why ? damm this shit is messin up my brain right now.. I wanna stop have this shit on my mind but the whole night I had bad dreams all about him and what he have done and what he might do.. This shit is killin meee on the inside..
maybe I'll turn out to be a cold hearted biatch.. thanxx to him.. and that scares me so badly..
Maybe I will never fall in love again and just sit here being angry, and feeling so hurt..
Iam afraid ..

BEYONCE looks stunnin..

snoop's new ...I like it

hey

Iam sick AGAIN!!! got some new antibiotics..
I had my court thing today over phone..it was very hard and my ex. lawyer tried to push me over the limit..
with my fever and all things I mixed stuff up..BUT I aint care... that bastard sat there and LIED!!

what can I say that man does not deserve all the love that I once gave him so iam gonna take it all back with interest .. I aint revengeful , but I aint gonna let him destroy our relationship, then my life, then the kids..

You've gotta give love back and you need to be there for others like they have been there for your ass..

The sentence will be send in like 2 weeks or some.. Iam waiting keepin my fingers crossed..

When I see him I cant see him like the one he was.. I look at him and see a stranger.. is this his true him? well like my friend said once a wife abuser always a wife abuser... I need 2 belive her and I need 2 belive it.. cause I cant keep on and hurt my self like this.. LIFE'S HARD...

COLLAGE..

thank you Bob... he is the best doing this kinda art:DD

hunk of the day ... Thomas you are the CUTEST!!!

I WATCH

And I have followed it for over 10 years..on and off..

VIVA LA ...

PUSSYEATERS

I want..and need..

Hot brown flesh rubbin against my inner thighs... I want a warm brown masculine body pressin againgst mine..

hunk of the day ...

Iam weak for those eyes...

You Are a Feminine Beauty!

You make any guy feel like a man, simply by standing next to him You have a classic womanly appeal - and you've got a look for every occasion This doesn't mean that you can't kick back in (designer) jeans and sneakers You just prefer to be girly and sweet as often as possible

What Type of Beauty Are You?

my LIPZ

What People Think of Your Mouth

People see you as both demanding and irresistible. You are often the center of attention - and that's how you like it. You are up for anything and very energetic. People sometimes propose wild ideas to you. And who knows? Maybe you'll take them up on it. You are known to be a little freaky!

What Does Your Mouth Say About You?

Boob TWIN??

Your Celebrity Boob Twin:

Carmen Electra

Who's Your Celebrity Boob Twin?

I want it

hard, rough, wet, sweaty, slow, lightly, deeply,nasty, dirrty, warm,cold, whisperer in my ear..
painfull, toungues, squeezing, happiness, tears, teasing, pleasure....

1 of my favorite songs in a new hot style..

heat..

our fingers meet..
I could feel your heat burn through my body like a wave of love.. a wave of the feeling I was so comfortable with..
It new me, I new it...
It was old It was new...
The moment felt like a whole lifetime..
times of love, times of happiness, tears , hate , laugh and deepest despair all flashed in my memory..
The fairytale is over..the word has been spoken...the tears are all cried.. the laughs have passed through our lipz .. Maybe the walls can still feel it..maybe the floor remember our feets..
The story has already been written.. and it ended..

PITBULL ..shake it!

me as an angel..

I show

my feelings wheneva whereva.. to whoeva..
I rather be outgoing then keep it all to me self... I belive to close your true feelings up will cause your physical and emotional health bad..

I really try more and more to stand for my own oppinions and say it loud and clear.. trying to say it so it comes out soft and clean.. so people dont get upset or go and commit suicide..

Just saying like Lady S.. love me or hate me ..if you love me then thank you if you hate me then fuck you..

long talk 2 my lawyer

about the trial next week.. Iam so damm nervous about this shit.. I havent done anything wrong why do I feel this way then?
He should feel this way..he should lay sleepless .. he should cry..

My lawyer even told me that bastard didnt even confess .. theres pictures that proove what he have DONE!!!
This still prooves what I have thought all along ..he dosnt feel sorry for what he have done to me.. he doesnt care.. If he had admit it all I could forgive him from the deepest of my heart but this only gives the hate in me more to grow in..

HE need help I dont.. he need to feel sorry for the pain he have caused and if he cant feel it or ask for my forgiveness Iam gonna make that bastard to pay for it!

SHAKE YA ASS ..the theme continues..lol

i remember tha day....

I remember tha day as it was yesterday..and I really do for real..

The time when we were happy and I had my baby still in my tummy.. I could feel her kick .. and that day for soon 4 years ago I had this explosive pain it came like the rain at a blue sky..
I knew it was time..
It only took 45 min. then the beutiful baby gurl who laid in my tummy was out.. we smiled to eachother and kissed.. I went up took me a shower and was so fresh, noone could tell I just gave birth to a baby for like 2 hours ago.. we sat and just looked at her.. I felt soo deep love and soo connected to you .. 1 of the happiest days of my life..
when I think about it now it hurts cause I wanna feel that joy and love again.. but it will never be with you..
you broke my heart and you can never unbreak it..

me as a mermaid

my weakness

are just like everyone know.. dark hair and brown eyes.. Tanned bodies or natural brown/black men..
The body type can be whateva, but The man need to show to the world that he loves his body..

Iam weak for tattoes big confidance and long eyelashes.. Big soft lipz that know how to give a kiss without asking but still at tha right moment..

Romance, good smelling, and all babies in the world animals or humans doesnt mather..

trust

is something you feel more and more for a person who doesnt proove you anything diffrent..
the trust is the most important thing that will keep any relations tied up..maybe through life.. or not if the trust is broken..

I cant start a long-time-relation with someone whom I feel doesnt trust me.. then I automatticly dont trust em.. The more someone trust me, the more I give my self to them..the more freedom someone give me with the tool of trust in the back the more Iam gonna stay and give all to them...

and if I personally feel that I cant trust someone I aint keep the contact with them, I END it!!!

been thinkin about...

if someone havent felt love how can he or she be sure of what it is when they get it??
is it possible that someone who havent felt the love from someone else for a very very long time get greedy? can they get dangerous?
I belive people is always greedy when it comes to love.. they want more and more they want it full time 24-7 and if they could they would destroy every lilltle thing that popps up between this and that..
yes they can get dangerous like all animals..protecting what they think are theirs..

Beyonce still is the worlds true star!!!

Iam sick feel sorry for meeeeeeeeeeee

iam sick.. went to tha DR. he told ne what I already new.. ear and a bad infection in my throat.. my fever was like VERY high.. I have eat tha medication since friday and it still aint well.. Iam waiting til 2-morrow and is it still bad Iam going 2 tha hospital..
FEEL 4 me!!
well this night was the first one I slept since thursday so I aint feeling so tired anymore but I still have the fever and my voice doesnt sound like my voice..I like it though...I think it sounds sexier..;) so if you wanna talk 2 this sexxy mami just give her a call..lol..

I continue with the Its all about tha booty!! this video is memories..lol

hunk of the day ...

and I luv it... he can make music.. write lyrics.. he got the big bad style and his voice is so masculine...

hey!

I havent reach the point to get desperate after someone..but it feels like damm soon I will..Iam tired of stupied ass men as this country can offer.. I want a real man who can take me as Iam..

I have been single for a long time now.. and I know thats my own fault , but I cant take someone and just fake that I have true feelings for him.. Iam picky and that makes it difficult to find someone to even date.. when I do date.. I aint get tha feeling so I stop..I end it before it has even begin..

and ..some friends of mine have this kinda theory bout me.. they Iam scurred of gettin in a relation, scurred of gettin hurt or meet someone like my ex..

and that most wanted have noone answer 2 yet:(

I know what I want

A man with the self -confidance who is comfortable with him self in any areas..

Who is secure enough to trust me and give me the space I need , a man who's not jelous cause he knows noone can compete with him..

He must love me for me, and dont wanna change me to something else..

He must like kids and know how to get in there level.. he must understand me a singel mom..

He must be old fashion but he must also be very modern and help me in every way..

He must like to work and earn the money to the family

he must be attractive and clean..

he must be really gangsta and thuggish.. but he also must be nice and soft show love and be kind 2 all ...

¨he must be smart and think quick ..and know that sometimes I can be a real bitch but I dont mean that..

He must like my kinda music and dress like the gangsta style/suit... romantic,likes 2 give me surprises,

SO WHERE ARE YOU??? if you fit or know anyone who does contact me.. and I will get him into safety..