Sunday, May 13, 2007

I have seen EPIC movie...



It was really funny!!! it have it all... My favorite moments were on tha boat wit the girls.. and crib in Narnia... well done movie and funny..

I give it a 5 out of 5 ...moe Epic movies 4 tha people..:D

The saturday..

was all spent with family and good friends... A half bottle of redwine and sexxymami was all like herself again..:)

cause the sense and touch of the fridays activitys kept on blurring insida my head... I had a hungova and I havent had one since like I was 15.. lmaoO... so mezzed up is the word...

I miss MR Smile!!! I havent seen him since tuesday?! and soon my period is ova and I need sum loooooooooooove... I wanna have babies and alot and alot of LOVE!
I have called me though just 2 check up with me...and I have called him.. He says alcohole isnt good for ya..I feel him..
So does this mean that Iam about to gettin all healthy going to soccer every weekend and look at him when he judge em out ...yeah he work as that in his free time ..he is a soccerLover...
he is a health freak and works extra at the local Jail..lOl... But thats what Im talkin about I need a grown man with his physical in shape so he can DO me ...wiiihoooo..
The age doesnt mather 2 me.. Iam all open , its tha freakin way they act in.. and if we get along or not..
So its ben not so intresting weekend 4 me.. but Ill get with it.. and at least the people I hung with had their blasts...YOU know..they were close 2 me and when they are they feel like they are in heaven...LMAOo

friday night... Sexxymami...was kinda shitty..

lookin all hard dont ya think???!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, May 10, 2007

I aint mad at cha....this one make me realize that life is 2 short..!!!!!! hope I see tupac in heaven!!!

I did

a mistake...shouldnt have sent that sms.. DAAAAAAAAAAAAMM
he didnt answered at the way I thought he was going to do..big mistake...huge...

I know he is a true combo for me.. but damm if he cant bare his inner then I cant even talk 2 him...
I know its hard to trust people I have that problem 2 but you must open up and give some attention to the other...
Right now Iam kinda hard cause I relate it all to MR L ...who buy the way is a big asshole and yes I have talked 2 him ..and I hung up in his ear..

But baby pleeeeeeeeeaze... aiiii.. give it 2 me..

LOVE this one...

He called me..

and when he did my tummy felt like wiiiihoooooo..
well he is working day and night...so it havent been anymore dating...but he will call me when he get back and then he gonna take me out..
just sent him a sms..then right after i regret i did.. I hate when I left my self just out like that..I wont even tell you what I said and what words but I can say ...It wasnt like the typical me..you know.. HIHIHIHIH

So this day have sucked...its slow and I took my self a nap and now its late and I aint tired but wtf..I can be up its at the nights it all happen...:D:D:D:D:D:D

Tell me!!?!!

why is the grass green? why is the sun so bright??
why do I feel so warm inside??
why is my head ache??
why do the birds sing?
why are my heart beating so fast?
why cant you hold me in your arms..just hold me there..close right next to your body?
why cant you look into my eyes ..with no fear no regards? why are you too close to my heart?
is this love. that Iam feelin?
is it pain.. Im recieving?
take it back! leave it! or do something...
cause this aint the feeling I wanna recieving

Wednesday, May 9, 2007

hunk of the day!!


Damm Papi youre a HOTTIE!!!! the gangsta look..and still looking soo soft ..thats wassup!

Tuesday, May 8, 2007

so

GIMME SOME DAMM ATTENTION!!!!

Oh baby I like it raw...

and rough and soft...and really really hard raw and sweaty..!!!

But I aint gettin all that tonight how much I scream and cry and beg for it cause he aint comin.. and yeah you all know the old fashion me..:)

So I thought this day was suppose to be special like he and me.. without tha kids..just being close to eachother explore without exploreing..if you know what Iam talking about...hihihihih

At least he called but I want attention 24/7 and I wanna have that NOOOOOOOOOOW!!!! I need it...And now I dont get to see that sweet ass of his until thursday...He better call me tomorrow or else ..LOL

this is good cleaning music!!!

this day is all about ..

cleaning... the whole apartment..maybe I have some guests here tonight...hihi...
damm its unbeliveble how well you can get along with people that you havent even known before...sometimes words dont speak...the only thing that mathers are the present of eachothers.. when the silence dont feel unbareble then the relation is natural and meant to be..

My heart

my heart is for you..
my heart is true..
just place it there in your hand...
just take care of it and it will never end..
it will beat only for you...
I promise you..
forever and ever for every beat it take..
into eternity into every breath you make..
keep it close keep it closer...
cause there it will stay like a treasure..

this is real good and soft music.... Babyface is one of my favorites.. didnt find another Vid...

Monday, May 7, 2007

this night I have been ...

at MR Smiles crib.. I brought my kids and he had his there...we all got along so goooooooood..hihihihi I had my first kiss and damm he can do his thing... I belive we are a great match-combo...
he is really nice and good with kids... and his apartment looked GREAT!!
Now its late and iam about to sleep...
and I dont feel low..MUAHZ

bootylicous....


asses are a nice thing!!!

NO doubt...

That sometimes there is more then just destiny...
Yesterday when I felt really LOW and wrote my last thang in here.. I turned the computer off and went to bed..
2 min. later it called I was hmmm who is it... cause there was number either..I answered and there he was AGAIN! MR Smile he just wanna to call to hear how I was doin and he wanna tell me that he missed me and thought of me..:)
I was like is he sent to me from God or whatt??!!!
he is like a mindreader.. at least when it comes to me...I really really do belive that he is meant to be with me..
And all I can think about that cause my bad confidance is who he was married to before...
damm am I wicked or whatt??
Yeah I can say like this...he was married to this woman who he have kids with who are a diffrent nationality then me and she and me are soooooo diffrent when it comes to our looks...and then I think what the hell is he see in me?? compare to her I must look like a giant with the uglyest face... NO I havent seen her... But I have the feeling ya know?
And yeah I know its all becouse of my own unsecurity... my bad confidance... BUt as I told my friends IF he sayz any negativity about my look or body its BYE BYE... theres actually MEN who loves a girl with a little fat on her body and a phat ass..
And he cant tell me anything I dont ready know..
Besides Iam the young one here and he is the older so ...maybe his confidance aint good either... except DAMM he do look like 10 years younger and he is soo fine..

Sunday, May 6, 2007

I feel

really really low.. and I cant suceed in any way ......
just wanna hide from all people in the whole world..
and This have MR L caused... even though I aint even thinkin of him.. he put big shit in my head and he didnt even said any but it was he did and didnt...
I feel low and now my day is over... Iam gonna lay in bed and just be someone I wanna be in my dreams...

the inner me...

is a scared shadow...
wanna hide ...
i dont deserve it ...iam a good person but theres men who are to good for me..and thats how I feel for MR Smile..
I feel ugly and like a poor single mom who are on the botton of the comunity..
and what have I to offer him?
yes maybe I have a really big heart maybe I really are emotional and can show love ..maybe I am careing and unselfish...maybe Iam a really positive spirit who always make other people feel good..
But I think thats not enough...Me are NOT enough... and the inner me the black shaow cries and feel unworthy love from men who are stable who are normal who arnt criminal who are hard working men and good fathers...
This is where my past do it self connected between my brain and heart..
This is where I feel like Iam a big failiure a mistake ...
this is where the inner me comes to the light...
I have a really bad confidance and Iam really messed up cause things in my past have hurt me and put me in to much control..
My bad confidance make me to push others away..
But this time I am more grown more mature and this time I realize what the problem is... the question is am I gonna be brave?????????? am I gonna manage this.. me the UGLY one?


SUNDAY DINNER!!


some pasta with bolognese.. Italian food is never wrong..

My Sisters best friend Sofia is playin ..LOL friday night..


One of the best home girls ..and like a extra sister..Pillan

sittin and take some coffee after shopping... this was friday..

memories... this is Xzibits best song ever..

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there be..

I often told myself that we could be more then just friends...
I know you think that if me move to fast it will all end...
I live in misery when you are not around..
I wont be satisfied til we take it some time...
there be some love making.. heart breakin ..soul shakin...
I often told myself this is all faith...
I know you think its us who makes this what it is...
I live in my fantazies when I think of you...
I wont be satiesfied until it all happen in my life...
there be some love makin..heart breakin...soul shakin...

HUNK of the day...



the Dj who have it all...DJ CLUE!!

Saturday, May 5, 2007

baby I got yaaaaaaaaaaa POEM FROM -04

AND IAM GOING TO KEEP YA..
I WILL CHERISH YA..
LOVE YA...
RESPECT YA..
GIVE YOU TRUST..
GIVE MY SELF...
FROM THE DEEPEST OF MY HEART...
IAM GOING TO MAKE THIS...
I WONT FALL APART...
IAM FOR YOU...I WILL SHOW YOU

Friday, May 4, 2007

hey babe..

this day have been really intrested...
This mornin ...MR Smile called .. and asked if we could meet... Ofcourse me myself and I said YES...
Well we met and before we did I asked if he wanted to meet me alone or if my friends could hang on.. and he said it didnt mather.. So he was very confidant.. talked and YEEEEEEEEYO his eyes are like killin meeeeeeeeeee...
they are sooo fine..
we talked most about him since Iam the master of questioning..
when I was gonna leave I said bye have it good and then I gave him a hug... he kissed me at my cheek... hihihihihi ..Sexxymami felt very GOOOOOOOOD,,..

then we saw the MR L and my friend ofcourse told him loud and clear that "she have been on a date" he was like ...whatt!!!
LOL
eat it mothafucka!!! lil homeboy...well He aint a man..he is a momas BOY!!

Thursday, May 3, 2007

memories..NEW YORK... Jarule got the best voice .. damm this voice get me all shivering..

THE MR L ...

AINT a mysetria he is just a real unconfidant man who have very much troubbels in his head...
I belive it all happens for a reason and NOW his chance have passed by..
BUT ..all I can say I regret I gave my fine ass Punane to that man.. ya dig? It has been nothin but troubble and I hate stuff like that...
Well I hope he will never call me again.. then I dont have to tell him to go to hell.. or maybe crawl into his own ass..

Soon its weekend and Iam thinkin of gettin shitty and just be the real me doing my thang and have a good time.. or maybe just take it easy and lay in bed and watch stupied dvd's...

THANK GOD...

for PAINKILLERS...

poem #2

I love you one I love you more..
I'll love you til my heart loves sore..
but, dont promise forever it only brings doubt..
dont promise what your not so sure about...
so sweet the look you give my eyes..
stare until the sparkle dies..
and if some how our fire smothers..
and we are somehow no longer lovers..
you will still dwell deep inside...
deep in me the fire grows wide...
claiming all thats of my heart...
it would be safe to say I would fall apart...

TODAY IAM THIS HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


MUHAZZZZZZZZZZ!!

Wednesday, May 2, 2007

I keep it GANGSTA!!! do tha giggin bitches!! .. B.G keep it gangsta..

hunk of the day ...



cutieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

B.G as one in the HOT BOYZ crew..the Cash money is his expression and he is from tha hot New Orleans,, one of tha best rapper in the game..

I know ...

what I wanna..and I wanna what I want!

ONE really good summer feeling song..YEAH!!

the worst thing...

I dont know what MR SMILE's name is for real thats sick... cause niether one of us could hear what it was..LMAO...

last night

did MR L call.. And suddenly I feel better.. Now I have come to realize I dont need a man like that so I will tell him BYE BYE...
Its not like me gonna end up all alone ya dig?! not to brag.. but theres many fish in the ocean .. lol
well MR SMILE did came up to me today when me and my friends all hooked up at the Centra of THE big E... Its the square ..here all people hook up when its nice weather..
Well I have never spoke to this man.. just seen him like in everyplace where I have been the two last weeks.. The first time I saw him I was like GOD DAMMIT!!!
Well he have looked and smiled and I have done it back and so today he came walking ova the square ..
We sat at the coffee house and just chilled outside in tha sunny weather... I waved to him and was like "hiiiiiiiii".. lol
He came to me and asked how everything was going and we talked for a while then he asked if we could take some coffee someday and he asked after my phone number... I gave it to him with a smile on my face .. I felt like this man who is soooo gorgous yes I promise u ..he is sooo HOT!! wanna go out with meeeeeee...
All my gurls was like damm gurl you got it going...:) '
I belive he is from poland or Bosnia-Hertzegovina... well something like that..but he is just A ..THE HOTTIE!!
so my mood today is nothing like it was yesterday.. And I donno what happen to me, I had it promised to my self to never let anyone dis me like that again.. and look what happen...
well now its my turn cause this between me and MR L will never get a serious relation after this.. Yeah maybe Iam sensitive but he did disrespect me.. And a man who do that this earlie will do it more and more...
So SEXXYMAMI will keep movin.. I dont have the name for nothin..

Tuesday, May 1, 2007

sometimes ..

I just feel like I wanna die.. lay in the bed under my blanket and never wake up again..
Now I have this feeling and I know its not llike me.. BUT I cant help this feeling I have for this MR L..
IF he only said go to hell or something..he could just tell me he dont want me.. ANYTHING! but this is just a long damm painful waiting..and that kills me from the inside...
I go nervous and I go crazy... I cant stop thinking of it and thats tears me down for every min....
I cant understand why?? what?? how ?? where??
I want answers and I cant have em.. how much I beg for em.. This is the first time in my whole life I have been treated like this.. a deadful, painful silence.. a silence that makes people insane..
I know Iam rough and hard sometimes but this can break any ass down ...

WTF! The worrie will soon be replaced with anger and then sometime somewhere somehow I will meet his sorry little ass up and then he will spit it to me weather he like it or not! ... Maybe I will even slap his face .. cause a little boy deserves to be spanked when he have been bad..ya dig?? I mean how can I treat this disrespectfullness?? AM I just gonna sit at my phat ass smile and accept the fact ghow he played me? how he just like the hunt after me? and then there wasnt funny no more he just gave the shit about me?

Right now I feel soo ALONE ...and I can never TRUST any man AGAIN ... all my experiances have give me scares and my heart is soured...
WHATS wrong with MEN? whats wrong with people???? is it HARD to tell the truuuuuth????????????...damm damm damm damm damm damm damm damm damm damm damm damm damm damm damm
I cry over someone who is invisible...

Poem #01

Love hold me until I dissapear...
and scrape away my only fear...
your words are like a drug to me..
I can hear your love but barely see..
sit for hours and talk all night..
and when we kiss it feel so right..
your gentle grasp I wish to keep..
its safe to safe to say ive been fallen asleep..
a dream with you to never awake..
so spare my heart that you will take..

DEAR GOD...WOULD YOU SEND ME AN ANGEL?????

The sexxy back of Beutyful BEYONCE


The mysteria with my finger...

wasnt so mysterious at all..
The DR told me I must have got something in it he cut it up and squeezed out tha fluid with some blood.. It hurted like hell but I didnt want tha shoot to make the pain go away.. it was done in like 4 sec...
Then he said it was gonna be alright by it self... well we see about that.. I dont trust DR especially not the ones who work at the duty calls...

SO now I need someone to kiss my finger so I can feel better...or kiss me somewhere else..lol

something weird happen

with my finger it got all swollen and filled with this fluid.. I pressed it out and damm it hurts..
POOR ME!!!
maybe I need to see a DR for some medications..its an infection..and I have NO idea how it become like that.. its a mysteria..

A CLOSEUP!!!



does IT excist???

Soulmate (or soul mate) is a term sometimes used to designate someone with whom one has a feeling of deep and natural affinity, friendship, love, intimacy, sexuality, and/or compatibility.
A related concept is that of the twin flame or twin soul – thought to be the ultimate soulmate, the one and only other half of one's soul, for which all souls are driven to find and join.
However, not everyone who uses these terms intends them to carry such mystical connotations; they are sometimes used simply as an expression of strong emotional feeling for someone.

something/nothing/anything

I can be alone but I dont wanna be lonely..
I can be sad but I dont wanna be hurt...
I can be free but I dont wanna be left alone..
I can be trusted but I do wanna people to care..
I can be open but I still wanna be myserious..
I can be chaildish but I still wanna be treated like an adult...
I can be dreamin but I can still take the truth...
I can wish alot but I still want my life..
I can be all in love but I still dont wanna be used...
I can be all those things and I still dont want you to change me...

best song right this moment...

are you a real man or a boy???

When someone is in the age of 34 I actually think he is mature enough to be straight real and open...
When someone is 34 they can call themselves MEN! if they act like it...
When it comes to MR L I wonder is he man or a boy??? we will see later today cause a real man can answer if he wanna be with me or not, not sit there all quiet and dont give a shit about things they have started..
Well he wont even be a boy in my eyes he will be a bitch ya dig a real ass Pussy! Damm I hate pussy ass men .. and even though I do I always end up in unluckly game with men who are bigger pussys then me and I have a reason to be a pussy I have one!!
this is latest news...
MR L called at my best friends home number in the middle of the night cause he doesnt got her new so she called him from it just to see if he did answer but ofcourse he didnt.. He did call her up like more then one day later in the night.. when her husband answered he hung up...did he recognize tha voice or whatt? well they could see it was from his phone number so..
Now I snt him a sms like where are we standing can you holla back to me... this is the last one cause tomorrow he will get some company at his work IF he doesnt answer..ya dig? he will loose ALOT if he cant be a man.. he will never be able to find himself a girl in this town again..lol Maybe a hoe though..
Yeah I have power here and NOONE just fuck me up like that ..call me all the time say they really like me and wonder if I wanna be theirs.. it wasnt like he fucked me and disappeared..no he kept on callin was here just cuttle with me..
I just tell ya its gonna be big problem for him if he cant act like the man he is suppose to be.. I know all people he know and more i am famous here ya dig.. The BIG E is not so big as you think..LOL nah its a smalltown..
but who cares noone shall accept being treated like they aint worthy a answer a call..
we will see what will happen........

Monday, April 30, 2007

A CLOSEUP!!!


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I swollow the heat ..from ya body..
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And I know you want it more and more..

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and how should it be??

when IT comes to sex we all have diffrent views on how it shall be... but who says and decides whats normal and whats not?
Who tell us how it should be?
Is it what we like what decides how we act and how we do it?
Is a really wet pussy a good thing or a bad thing? trust me its good cause that means she's really excited and into you...But maybe its better for the man when its not so wet? maybe it doesnt slide so much then...hmm well you cant get it all..

Everywhere it always talks about how much pressure girls and women feels when it comes to sex and their bodies.. so how about men?
Men need to know how to act in bed.. they do need big dickz.. women like when they can keep it up for a long time..and they have to do the lickin like it was the last time they gonna eat the pussy..
YES I do belive they also feels kinda pressure ...but you need to understand we women are special, we are more complicated and we all have diffrent pussys who all need their special treatment..
Some men treat us the way they wanna be treated...and I just say LOL about that..

But the most important thing when it comes to sex is that it feels good and that both in it are mutural about it.. after that it doesnt mather how it should be ..its you as the coupple who set the limits and decides whats good or not..

So dont think its bad with a wet pussy is it too wet just vipe it and continue .. it could be so much worse ..it could be sooo dry and thats a real sign that she aint enjoying it! so think about that!

HUNK!!!!


me like this man!! he have great style and he is the first one out with a whole new type of music..
SEAN PAUL knows what a woman needs to shake her ass..

some G-funk! in tha house... summernights..:)

I wanna be a..

A sandwich... feel you bite me..piece by piece... while you enjoy it... I wanna be able to feel you all around me ..

bootylicous....


this ass is perfect!

Why Am I

Always making up excuses for someone I like when they behave like shit?
Is this "the take care of, love me forever" syndrome? even if it is.. I make up excuses in my head why people act and baheve badly.. especially against me.. why Cant I just think and accept this one is a jerk a real fucker and he doesnt deserve you?.. no I cant and that probably is becouse of my chaildhood..
I SOOOO wanna MR L but well hmm to be real honest he do act like shit.. He havent called and I havent hear any sign from him that his is even alive.. Ya know He doesnt call or answer to anyone, But me Iam special ..He have been intimite with me.. and that means ALOT to me..
Maybe he do this out of revange.. when I just dissed him.. But that was cause I wasnt ready...
Oh damm it doesnt mather how much I think of this I cant get the answer anyway..
But as hard as it is to admit it... I feel hurt.. and I did let it happen once again..

Now am I going to get some unnatural sun in the solarie.. then its Kids day today so ..its gonna be alot of walking outside in tha sun..

God thanks for my kids if I hadnt have got them I dont know how things in my life would have been...<3>

MY Babies..


Sunday, April 29, 2007

I CAN BE WHO IAM!

Iam proud of who Iam.. and that theres only one original of me..thats MEEE!!..

There was a time when I didnt like myself..and I belived in every word other people said.. and especially the ones I loved.. but life and love is all abput accepting who you are and what you are and all about you...
If someone is trying to change the way and the one you are ..RUN!!! if someone doesnt like your personality...RUN...If someone is trying to change the way you look or tell you bad stuff about how you look...RUN...
This is becouse these people doesnt RESPECT you as the fine and nice person you are...they want something else so let them have it and wak away.. Cause u aint wanna have this kinda people around ya ass...

I ask people to go away if they cant respect and accept the real ME!!

Penis of the DAY!

LOVE this one.. DANCE with me...

Follow the heart..

Once I got an advice it was to follow my heart.... I follow the advice and all I did was to listen to it and follow it... the inner voice lead me into alot of bad things but good things too...I dont regret all the things Ive been through..but I do feel that listen to my heart without consider it with my brain is really stupied...
To be really happy you need to follow that heart of yours but you also need to think, is this good for me?? is this gonna hurt me more then it gonna do me good?
Actually I have the problem that I always follow my heart and I DONT think...
This Time I did it again... I gave MR L this chance and then I fell for him and Iam sooo disapointed cause he havent called me..
Again this listen to my heart thing got me hurt... I long for him and I keep on thinkin of him... but I know this is ova.. and Its the first time someone dis me like this...

Saturday, April 28, 2007

wise words

Its better to have a dick stuck in ya ass if you gonna be late then if you are just late...

ITS SAT. bitches dance and mova ya ass to thiz..Mac Dre!! one of the best

The bible of reality

You can call it todays blogging.. the internet wires under the ground.. the black box in the plane... all cam who watch every step you take in the stores..
what is gonna be private what is gonna be a mysteria? ..
Before you didnt know the actually truth only peoples words.. that was enough... when words aint enough it will be recorded it will be catched on pics on movies ... and whats gonna happen after that? when that truth aint enough???

I WANNA

OUCHIE BANG BANG!!!!!!!!

what is what?

Is life all about luck? is it about the destiny? Is it God who decide your life or is it the Karma? Or do the luck place you in the life you are gettin?

I grew up with mother a single mom with 3 daughters... My daddy and she got divorced when I was like 2.. I Had the love and attention I needed there, but there was always this big thing in my life I missed..
It was my father ...this created big anxiety in me... everytime someone talked about their fathers I got panic feelings and cried..
At home my mother didnt like to talk about my father so I didnt cause I noticed that she didnt feel well when we talked about him..and I Loved my mother more than anything and I didnt wanna see her sad...

This have definaitly created me to the person Iam today.. and this have affect in my relationship with others most men..
I wanna feel their love and attention allover me all the time... I have hard to talk about this but I know about my problems and now I am gonna do something about them...
As a soon 29 year old woman I wanna be able to pick good men who love me in the right way...
I have never felt the love from my dad..and I still miss it and I still gonna be hurt for the rest of my life but I aint never gonna get healed so I must accept it and just learn to appriciate my self ..and appriciate the love I get from others and dont think that to be loved is all about feel pain..
My connection with my father aint never gonna be in a normal father /daughetr relation..
Yes it makes me sad..But I feel I dont need it its to late..

Penis of the DAY!

an american one..looool
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Friday, April 27, 2007

whats cheatin???

Cheatin for me is a thought ...a wish to be with someone else by Love... or kissin with another ...all people have diffrent views about this and mine maybe are hard...But I go from myself if I kiss someone or longin for sex by love with someone else then I dont want my man.. And thats a cheat...
I hate cheatin and I hate false people... people who acts are gonna stand up loud and clear tellin the world about their acts..It doesnt mather what the fuck its about...
A person who do this do deserve respect for being an honest one and real about the truth.. even if the acts dont deserve respect and its very uncomfortable to hear ..
If someone did cheat on me..I would kick him out from my life..NOONE get another chance when it comes to this..cause I belive I could forgive but never forget.. The trust would just have disappear and I could never trust again...
Iam old fashion and I dont belive in fuckin around with diffrent people if you have a relationship..

this day.............. been out

to a friend ..all day in the sun .,..wishing it would give me some colour.. well it did.. freckles ...lol
My daughter is sick again and I pray to God she aint gonna flie ova the bacteria on me again.. its the third time with infection in her throat and she have her third antibioticum..
When Iam sick I get SOOOOOOO sick.. always the highest fever and throw up.. so dont do me more sick then Iam LOL..

I Feel confused..

Mr L is real weird and I cant put my finger on him..
He have been a real pain in the ass all fall and he have stalk both me and my best friend and her husband about information about me and so on...
He have told my best friend who have known him for like 15 years that he want a serious relationship and so on... he asked me if he could have me..I said yes.. but he aint like on meee... he act like he is scurred and he act like he wanna be on a sate distace to me...
and thats the worst thing a man can do... i want attention ..i want to feel like he cares that he wants me,. that he miss me...that he can do it all for me...¨
if I cant have that I move on.. And I will get it from someone else cause BELIVE me..I can choose between alot of men..so he aint gonna belive that he is just the MR I have it all...
But why did he told so much.. and why is he acting like this...
I feel like he doesnt give a shiiiiiiiiiit... and then I will give up...

Hunk of the day!!! daaaaaaaamm this man is GORGEOUS both inside OUT!!!!!!!

I wanna be a..

Ice cream..vanilla with a surprise in the middle just to feel you lickin me up and down..your toungue allover me...


Thursday, April 26, 2007

Paris Hilton bags????

I know one thing and that is I will NEVER support that skinny biatch with my cash ya know??! I aint gonna buy her stupied shit... not her parfume not her bags not her NOTHIN!
so where is this anger comin from... hmm well I donno.. I just feel like this thing I cant call her a woman is just so fuckin annoying and who cares about her? she is nothing the only thing she is .. is a skinny rich biatch.. and keep up with me !u cant really feel for her? is she a beuty?? LMAO!!!! Look like a bird..( thats lingo for ugly gurl ya dig?)
So keep all Paris away from me or Ill get tha angry face @ you!!

TRY 2...

DEPORT ME FUCKERZ!!!!!!!!! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA...

YEEEEEES

I do belive women are beutiful.. I do belive its hot with a woman with a beutiful body...am I gay???? NOOOOOOOOOOOOO..hell NO !
everyone knows I LOVE and ADORE Beyonce... and do I wanna do her sexually becouse of that?? huh??? NO!
so why cant men think like that?? do they like the male body?? actually the male boday aint that beutiful as a womans.. they are like sexy and masculine but not beutiful....
they cant look like dolls.. they can look like they are in the real life but the truth is that they excist in a manga movie..YEAH!
I have names for diffrent type of men... its the fuckers- the ones with a real ugly and bad inside..
the brats-those with the ugly and ultra modern rock clothes.. the bad boys- you know they could take ya ass to heaven and back..
The frienldy man- who r too nice too much talking too little action and shy when it comes to love..
its the distance keeper-who u fall for so deep but always keep a big distance.. (this one have it all if he open..
theres alot more but who feel to write all night ...now iam going back to bed bitches,,, sleep thight..NIGHTY

THIS IS MY RIFLE ...OPEN YA MOUTH BITCH..SWOLLOW THAT SHIT !!


PUT YOUR HEAD UP THERE AND GO AWAY YOU MEANLESS FUCKER


SOME PEOPLE HAVE THEIR BRAIN IN THEIR ASSES OTHERS YOU DO WISH THAT THEY COULD DISAPPEAR IN THERE.. SO YOU COULD BE LEFT ALONE...

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

sometimes

I wish moments could last forever... you know those moments who are filled with the peaze in your heart? and mind and soul? ... this night I had this moment and I want it back...
I felt the totally peaze and even though someone like MR L snored hard and loud right beside my ear I didnt bothered...
MR L suddenly woke up and got the worst pop in his ass... he dressed and said bye like he had some kinda panic.. I was all flurry in my head and I couldnt understand wtf he was leavin for..
I still dont.. but I feel like I cant care about it either.. I feel like Iam trapped in a box when it comes to him... he is a mysterious man.. but GOD dammit he sure is wonderful and I cant hardly belive it..
why??? well dont know just remember my first impression of him and how fast things in this weird world can turn around..
I feel alone and I need love.. can I have some dear God???

my new hair!!!


okey Iam used 2 it now..:) and dont ask what I wear..lol.. its a dress but damm I look so white...but beliiiiiiiiiive me I have been out in tha sun!!!

me


been 2

my hairdresser ..and I have big NONONO in my mind.. she cut me like shorter then Iam used 2..
But it will be ooook... when Iam more used 2 it..
Iam thinkin of gettin my platina-blonde look again.. Like Xtina..

Today its gonna be mexican evening here... dinner and nice company.. Me and mexican food its just my soooo fuckin favorite food..:)

I have had pain in my back and ribs again..damm when am I going to be well??? I hate those fuckin painkillers ya know it makes me like high in the brain.. and I feel like wasted..

Mr L.. have told or not(yes cause the one who told me is like crazy in his head..dont know what 2 belive) that we are together like for real.. I donno.. The only thing I know is that he makes me feel good and that aint usual when it comes to men..
Íam just so insecure when it comes to feelings and yes Iam scared..becouse of my past..
Damm I really really need some sex tonight.. maybe maybe NOT...LOL

Sunday, April 22, 2007

THE WAY I LIVE!!!!!!

well u can tie me down

You cant tie me down hope you will fuck me up! the only thing I will get fucked up with or off...is if you literarely FUCK me..or put me in a bathtub filled with vodka and tell me to drink it up!
Yeah I can get angry of actions or by words but they cant get me fucked up...
So stop use the words fucked up, or I will show you the extreame pleasure of gettin ya ass pimped ..And no Iam gonna use the big magic stick to make ya scream like u never screamed before..PLEASURE man ..pleasure..
didnt you tell me those things a while ago?? huh?? that sex in the thight little ass was just the best eva.. and all women liked it.. yeah we do;) but the new shyte is that men also LUVE it! .. so hit me back and I ll hit ya up! pimp that shyte and you will find it hard just to walk..LMAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Iam such a biatch..wanna mess with me?? you know who you are..

ITS A SUNDAY MORNING!!!!!!!


ME FEELING LIKE I HAVE THE KNOWLEDGE OF THE HUMANITY AND INSANITY ...BEING A STRAIGHT CONNECTION TO THE LIFE'S BIG SECRETS..(MAYBE IAM THE NEW SAIDA???

Friday, April 20, 2007

TODAY

ITS FRIDAY BITCHES!!!!!!! TODAY this lil Mami is gettin all shitty! Iam gonna be fly doing my thang as usual...
So If you wanna hook up with meeee...just give me a holla @ my phone ..
Iam gonna celebrate that Iam the one in charge that my ex is just this bitch and damm I hope he sit there all angry..LMAO..!!
So give me a holla bitches...and come and be all shitty with me:) yeaaaaaaaah

Thursday, April 19, 2007

MY ex got his judge...

2 months in prison and pay me some cash.. but it wasnt as much as I hoped it 2 be... but I wont take it further cause that means bad luck...
I hope he will get what he deserve by GOD and by people around him... what goes around comes around..KARMA!!!
I am happy now I can move on to the next level.. to give him a hard time about how he act in front of the kids..