Wednesday, June 6, 2007
Tuesday, June 5, 2007
so late in bed..
early up..
Iam going to the highlife middle spot of my Town..the big square ..when the sun is shining and the spring weather puts in this is where it ALL happen:D:D:D:D:D..
Now its summer and damm its people everywhere ..
actually I really really really need to do this BIF summer cleaning of my apartment.. but who wanna be inside this day?
I wanna be out talk to people spreading my luuuuuuuuuve to the world outside..
yes it is warm in sweden NO we dont have polar bears walking around LMAO..
sweden is the land of VIKINGS but its still summer here like there is in other parts of Europe..
"baby baby I get down on my knees for you"
musthavecoffee is taking over my brain so HAVE A FABOLOUS DAY!!!
Iam going to the highlife middle spot of my Town..the big square ..when the sun is shining and the spring weather puts in this is where it ALL happen:D:D:D:D:D..
Now its summer and damm its people everywhere ..
actually I really really really need to do this BIF summer cleaning of my apartment.. but who wanna be inside this day?
I wanna be out talk to people spreading my luuuuuuuuuve to the world outside..
yes it is warm in sweden NO we dont have polar bears walking around LMAO..
sweden is the land of VIKINGS but its still summer here like there is in other parts of Europe..
"baby baby I get down on my knees for you"
musthavecoffee is taking over my brain so HAVE A FABOLOUS DAY!!!
Monday, June 4, 2007
I feel brainwashed..
Iam tired cause I can never get enough sleep how much I even try.. Iam tired but when the sun is shining its like a spotlight in my head and I become like so AWAKE..
wut can I say.. I brainwash my self with the sun glow who takes it way through my windows and my dark curtains into my eyes and find it ways through my deepest spot of my brain..
damm can someone put out the light just for one day??????????
"your poison runnin through my vains"
wut can I say.. I brainwash my self with the sun glow who takes it way through my windows and my dark curtains into my eyes and find it ways through my deepest spot of my brain..
damm can someone put out the light just for one day??????????
"your poison runnin through my vains"
Some swedish old classic's..LOL ..this was BIG hits during 80's
ANKI with I was made for lovin you baby
LILLI o SUSSI boyfriend
LiLLI o SUSSI oh mama
TROLL jimmy dean
Tommy & TONE
LILLI o SUSSI boyfriend
LiLLI o SUSSI oh mama
TROLL jimmy dean
Tommy & TONE
OHHHHHHHH
My friend got her baby yesterday!!! daaaaaaaaamm a little gurl :D
I can admit Iam SO fuckin JELOUS.. I want a baby a little newborn baby who smells all clean and are soft and just soo freakin Tiny..
its beautiful ..as the baby crazy person Iam ..Im gonna stare at this little person and wish it ALL good in this world.. they are so innocent and clean and NOTHING can compare to them.. small angels with no wings..
Newborn babies always make me feel touched and then I can start 2 cry... just want to keep them all SAFE!!
Well I wish them all luck and I cant wait to see the little miracle...
I can admit Iam SO fuckin JELOUS.. I want a baby a little newborn baby who smells all clean and are soft and just soo freakin Tiny..
its beautiful ..as the baby crazy person Iam ..Im gonna stare at this little person and wish it ALL good in this world.. they are so innocent and clean and NOTHING can compare to them.. small angels with no wings..
Newborn babies always make me feel touched and then I can start 2 cry... just want to keep them all SAFE!!
Well I wish them all luck and I cant wait to see the little miracle...
have you ever felt like
afraid for changes even when you know they are really good for you?
You know that this will be what you absofuckinlutely want in the end and still you are afraid?
Even bad habits will be missed and longing fo even though you aint want em.. Its sort of an addiction and its the hardest addiction you can ever face..
The human brain is special both on good and bad terms.. we destroy things that are good and keep bad things happen.. the thing that drives us is our curiousity and the want for more excited feelings..
why is the bad things so fun? where is the excitement in being a foolish bitch in the end? well theres so much we cant explain , but as long we are aware of our behave we can do sum about it, its never too late..
"keep on walking tha road I will follow"
You know that this will be what you absofuckinlutely want in the end and still you are afraid?
Even bad habits will be missed and longing fo even though you aint want em.. Its sort of an addiction and its the hardest addiction you can ever face..
The human brain is special both on good and bad terms.. we destroy things that are good and keep bad things happen.. the thing that drives us is our curiousity and the want for more excited feelings..
why is the bad things so fun? where is the excitement in being a foolish bitch in the end? well theres so much we cant explain , but as long we are aware of our behave we can do sum about it, its never too late..
"keep on walking tha road I will follow"
Sunday, June 3, 2007
stole sum wise words...
"Every tick of the clock takes away something..."
stolen from yoghurt...... http://yoghurtscorner.blogspot.com/
stolen from yoghurt...... http://yoghurtscorner.blogspot.com/
you are
so far away from me but still so close...
I got this weirdest feelin about my self ... I have felt my grandpa's present for a few days here.. back and forth.. sometimes I have even thought I can see his shadow around ..just standin there like he is watchin me..
Well today some thoughts just came up like from no where.. like.."I must change the way I live my lifestyle" I aint immortal .. I must start 2 live healthy by the book ..like non smoking non drinking..alot of training.. and NO painkillerz..
OH maybe Iam really sick..maybe its just imagination ..I dont know..
But suddenly I got scared ...and I never get scared like this..
I talked to him like he could hear me, and Iam sure he did.. still I aint see him..
Many times in the past during the difficultes I had with my ex.. I cried and just wanted him to give me comfort and strength to keep going.. everytime I felt like he was near me and everytime I felt love and I did get more strength..
Just wonder if this is all imagination maybe Iam starting to get schitzofrenia? is it all fantasy's? IT CANT be.. and if it is..It still get me comfort and strength so it cant be bad...
I know when he was alive we had a special realtionship..but now when he is ghone ..he can feel all my pains all my happiness..he KNOWS all of me..
I got this weirdest feelin about my self ... I have felt my grandpa's present for a few days here.. back and forth.. sometimes I have even thought I can see his shadow around ..just standin there like he is watchin me..
Well today some thoughts just came up like from no where.. like.."I must change the way I live my lifestyle" I aint immortal .. I must start 2 live healthy by the book ..like non smoking non drinking..alot of training.. and NO painkillerz..
OH maybe Iam really sick..maybe its just imagination ..I dont know..
But suddenly I got scared ...and I never get scared like this..
I talked to him like he could hear me, and Iam sure he did.. still I aint see him..
Many times in the past during the difficultes I had with my ex.. I cried and just wanted him to give me comfort and strength to keep going.. everytime I felt like he was near me and everytime I felt love and I did get more strength..
Just wonder if this is all imagination maybe Iam starting to get schitzofrenia? is it all fantasy's? IT CANT be.. and if it is..It still get me comfort and strength so it cant be bad...
I know when he was alive we had a special realtionship..but now when he is ghone ..he can feel all my pains all my happiness..he KNOWS all of me..
in the car gonna do sum shoppin.. BOOOOOOORING...still happy though:D
and when I went to get sum cash .. I nearly started to cry.. DAAAAAAAAAAAAAMM !! yes I know money isnt all.. but you gotta atleast have enough you know..
Do I have to go out and rob someone to get food on the table??
The swedish gouvernment can eat my poop..!! buck em all...
?
can I get a shot of sensations ? can i Have my mind open like its all free to read?
Did you read my pages? then explain to me why...
what are you what amI?
You can always keep my body prisoned but my mind is always free.. what does
page 27 tell you? is it you and me?
dont tell me things I wanna hear ..whisper in my ear all the things I fear...
at the bottom of the sea theres a box ..open that for me..
do you see the colour in my eyes? is it blue or is it just the colour you belive is blue?
Did you read my pages? then explain to me why...
what are you what amI?
You can always keep my body prisoned but my mind is always free.. what does
page 27 tell you? is it you and me?
dont tell me things I wanna hear ..whisper in my ear all the things I fear...
at the bottom of the sea theres a box ..open that for me..
do you see the colour in my eyes? is it blue or is it just the colour you belive is blue?
MY BABE..
is soon coming back to me..:D And I cant wait til he do..;) Iam gonna lay between his legs for hours ..
"my sexy love..so sexy.. he makes the hairs of my neck stand up..just one touch"
I cant belive that someone can vibe me like that..
All my pain all my worries disappear when I look into his eyes... wich I by the way can stare into for hours..
But damm Iam scared.. to be hurt to be left alone to be standing there with a broke heart..
"I can see it in your eyes"
HAPPY music create a HAPPY mind!!!
"my sexy love..so sexy.. he makes the hairs of my neck stand up..just one touch"
I cant belive that someone can vibe me like that..
All my pain all my worries disappear when I look into his eyes... wich I by the way can stare into for hours..
But damm Iam scared.. to be hurt to be left alone to be standing there with a broke heart..
"I can see it in your eyes"
HAPPY music create a HAPPY mind!!!
I NEED YA
Like A Scene From My Favorite Movie....
Hard To Control Myself When U Next To Me ....
If Its Against The Law To Love Then Sue Me....
MAN This Whole Thing Got Me In Disbelief .....
I Kno It Takes Time ......
To Build Somethin Thats Worth While ........
But Just In Case You Didn't Hear Me ............
Imma Say It Again More Clearly........
I Need Ya Like A Bed Need Some Covers........
I Need Ya..
Baby We Need Each Other .....
MAN I Need Ya Like A Comedian Needs A Joke .........
I Need Ya....
Baby I Need You The Most
Hard To Control Myself When U Next To Me ....
If Its Against The Law To Love Then Sue Me....
MAN This Whole Thing Got Me In Disbelief .....
I Kno It Takes Time ......
To Build Somethin Thats Worth While ........
But Just In Case You Didn't Hear Me ............
Imma Say It Again More Clearly........
I Need Ya Like A Bed Need Some Covers........
I Need Ya..
Baby We Need Each Other .....
MAN I Need Ya Like A Comedian Needs A Joke .........
I Need Ya....
Baby I Need You The Most
I have been challenged by.. skinheadxbarbiedoll.. so here you GO!
RAINY HAPPY STYLE
PIPPI LONGSTOCKING STYLE
SOPHISTICATED STYLE
PIPPI LONGSTOCKING STYLE
SHITTY RUMBLE AND HUMBLE STYLE
AND I CHALLANGE YOUGHURT & YO MAMA!!!!!
ITS a sweet sunday...
And me are already bored to death... or not...
SO its THE big cleaning day.. my baby is gettin older and bigger for everyday that goes.. and now she's gonna start to sleep in her own room...
As the worried and careing mother Iam, I must make myself sure of that she is gonna feel real safe in her room..
UNSAFETY is absolutely forbidden in my eyes ..a chaild is gonna feel safe and loved and IF she isnt then she aint ready to sleep alone..
I have got the advice not to be to kind ..but I belive that being hard in wrong situations to a chaild can cause fear in the future..
then I can also tell that I aint let my kids drive me around you know..
SO its THE big cleaning day.. my baby is gettin older and bigger for everyday that goes.. and now she's gonna start to sleep in her own room...
As the worried and careing mother Iam, I must make myself sure of that she is gonna feel real safe in her room..
UNSAFETY is absolutely forbidden in my eyes ..a chaild is gonna feel safe and loved and IF she isnt then she aint ready to sleep alone..
I have got the advice not to be to kind ..but I belive that being hard in wrong situations to a chaild can cause fear in the future..
then I can also tell that I aint let my kids drive me around you know..
Saturday, June 2, 2007
this day..
have been like a mothafuckin pain shot in the ass...
what is sleep? I DONNO.. sleeping is fo me to wake up and feel all jiggy being like wiho and not being tired no more..
well I didnt get much sleep so to thus far I have been like drunk all day.. 3 people have asked if I have ben drinking sum funny stuff, or if Iam high on painkillers.. BUT as a mather and as a FACT ...::::: ME IS nothing.. me is just being me with alot of sand in my cute blue eyes.. My head is spinning so fast and Iam all hype...over this NOT gettin any sleep..
WELL... its a luxury problem and I aint complaining others ARE...
SO people get me right on this one.. I like to be a bitch when it comes to words u know.. I like to play it all hard in the game of control the words with my brain who later are spit out by my phat lipz..
People can call me crazy or bitch ..I DONT CARE!! youre the problem not me.. if you see a problem it is..if you aint recognize it it wont be... you with me???
what is sleep? I DONNO.. sleeping is fo me to wake up and feel all jiggy being like wiho and not being tired no more..
well I didnt get much sleep so to thus far I have been like drunk all day.. 3 people have asked if I have ben drinking sum funny stuff, or if Iam high on painkillers.. BUT as a mather and as a FACT ...::::: ME IS nothing.. me is just being me with alot of sand in my cute blue eyes.. My head is spinning so fast and Iam all hype...over this NOT gettin any sleep..
WELL... its a luxury problem and I aint complaining others ARE...
SO people get me right on this one.. I like to be a bitch when it comes to words u know.. I like to play it all hard in the game of control the words with my brain who later are spit out by my phat lipz..
People can call me crazy or bitch ..I DONT CARE!! youre the problem not me.. if you see a problem it is..if you aint recognize it it wont be... you with me???
Friday, June 1, 2007
TIDE!!
You have the bravest heart, the strongest emotions...After all the harm ive caused you still want my lovin..I think Ive lost your love..How can I be mad at you when Iam the one to blame? You have the bravest heart...Tide the strongest emotions...after all the harm Ive caused you still are my lovin...
I cant belive, I still recive so much affections from your side...If you could give me one more chance I would love to turn the tide...I would love to turn the TIDE!
TIME
is something people come up with..
TIME doesnt excist...TIME is nothing...life is a circle..its all eternity... TIME is NOTHING..
Then my question is.. if time didnt excist and wasnt such a huge thing in our lives would we all live longer?? would we all be stronger?? I belive we would.. I belive that if we ate when we were hungry, worked when we needed too slept whenever we felt for it.. we would all be HAPPY!!
life is a question , life is a mysteria, we can never find out anything that we aint meant to know ..
everything changes but is that the cause of time or the cause of life? is it as simple as that?? maybe life aint a mysteria? maybe it just are right here right now?
every part in this world is a pieca of a very big puzzle, it would never be hole if there was a piece missing..
TIME doesnt excist...TIME is nothing...life is a circle..its all eternity... TIME is NOTHING..
Then my question is.. if time didnt excist and wasnt such a huge thing in our lives would we all live longer?? would we all be stronger?? I belive we would.. I belive that if we ate when we were hungry, worked when we needed too slept whenever we felt for it.. we would all be HAPPY!!
life is a question , life is a mysteria, we can never find out anything that we aint meant to know ..
everything changes but is that the cause of time or the cause of life? is it as simple as that?? maybe life aint a mysteria? maybe it just are right here right now?
every part in this world is a pieca of a very big puzzle, it would never be hole if there was a piece missing..
Doin sum..
The rest of the dayz have pass by .. so FAST.. mostly in the bed with the little MR P..hihi ..
((He aint little he is more then 2 heads over me and Iam 5'6.. ))
but just chillin and deeptalking and laughing hysterical... thats LIFE people..
IAm HAPPY for real ..
I cant live in a lie u know and everything have its meaning.. all this dating with all these wrong people ..just maked me realize that is wasnt meant to be.. and if this aint meant to be it wont happen..if it is it will happen.. and Iam sure of this will..
My destiny is him.. can I say so?? I donno.. but I FEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEL 4 him..
OH babe U have no idea ..I FEEEEEEEEEL.. from your head to your toes..
MR P have you stole my heart???
((He aint little he is more then 2 heads over me and Iam 5'6.. ))
but just chillin and deeptalking and laughing hysterical... thats LIFE people..
IAm HAPPY for real ..
I cant live in a lie u know and everything have its meaning.. all this dating with all these wrong people ..just maked me realize that is wasnt meant to be.. and if this aint meant to be it wont happen..if it is it will happen.. and Iam sure of this will..
My destiny is him.. can I say so?? I donno.. but I FEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEL 4 him..
OH babe U have no idea ..I FEEEEEEEEEL.. from your head to your toes..
MR P have you stole my heart???
The sunday continued...and monday stepped in.. ready or not..
And I picked up my darling sweetheart MR P .. laid in bed the whole sunday.. went up on monday still sick of the drinkz on the sat.
The Monday was all about cuttle and deeptalk.. this man IS SO damm FUNNY!! I can laugh myself to tears like 10 times/hour ..
I love men who can make me laugh.. so thank u ..for sendin him:D
I have realized.. same kids play best.. ya dig? its all about culture or how u are raised what values are important.. and I belive this is true.. I belive IT can last longer if you are similair.. not to much but like I said values in life and if you have the same life plan...
The Monday was all about cuttle and deeptalk.. this man IS SO damm FUNNY!! I can laugh myself to tears like 10 times/hour ..
I love men who can make me laugh.. so thank u ..for sendin him:D
I have realized.. same kids play best.. ya dig? its all about culture or how u are raised what values are important.. and I belive this is true.. I belive IT can last longer if you are similair.. not to much but like I said values in life and if you have the same life plan...
the SUNDAY...this is how I look when I have the worst HUNGOVA..
was A pain in the ASS...truly madly deeply.. I WAS so sick.. the worst HUNGova I have ever had..
I never use 2 get sick the day after.. but this time i was..
And my babe MR P was going to visit me.. I had the worst pain in my head and all I could think about was him and that I shuldnt miss to meet his fine ass at the bus...
I know what hell is like.. LMAO.. well its gonna take a while 4 me to get ova this memory how a hungova can feel like..lol..
As they say...you get what you deserve..;)
so WHAT have happen..
heres tha STORY people..
SATURDAY was being out with my big siss ..and was SO damm DRUNK!!! we went to diffrent clubs and danced ..I danced around tha pole and that gave me need fo more.. IWANNA have a POLE!!! gimme.... pleazeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..
maybe I HAD 2 fun..
Friday, May 25, 2007
so wut up???!
MR P is coming 2 me again! sunday is tha day..
Iam in luuuuve.. yeah fo sure.. he really make me feel tipsy all day long without being it you know!!
He is just like me in the personality..and that is GREAT! cause I really love my own me..
Everyday he calls and that just make my heart goes boom...
So wut we gonna do? well I guess we do the same as last time.. talk and just enjoy eachothers company and alot of kissing ofcourse.
I cant wait until he comes.. and I feel like I never want it to end..
But as a woman who have give her self one time before and got very hurt emotional I am SCARED...
I do trust him cause he havent give me any reason not too but still I dont trust him .. Iam 2 scared.. Iam afraid of what could happen if I expose my self..
SO AFRAID...
its hard but its so amazing... I feel good but down.. I feel like iam in heaven but still I feel like all is just dream.. I live in fear of waking up..
Iam in luuuuve.. yeah fo sure.. he really make me feel tipsy all day long without being it you know!!
He is just like me in the personality..and that is GREAT! cause I really love my own me..
Everyday he calls and that just make my heart goes boom...
So wut we gonna do? well I guess we do the same as last time.. talk and just enjoy eachothers company and alot of kissing ofcourse.
I cant wait until he comes.. and I feel like I never want it to end..
But as a woman who have give her self one time before and got very hurt emotional I am SCARED...
I do trust him cause he havent give me any reason not too but still I dont trust him .. Iam 2 scared.. Iam afraid of what could happen if I expose my self..
SO AFRAID...
its hard but its so amazing... I feel good but down.. I feel like iam in heaven but still I feel like all is just dream.. I live in fear of waking up..
more eating pussy..
for the people.. the men must eat more...the women need to be more eaten..!! This is a true fact, that theres to little oral sex going on between tha sheets..
You dont even have to do it in tha bed u know..
We must put this subject in a higher level..this need to be put out in the air.. THE WOMEN NEED TO BE LICKED!! everywhere anywhere anyhow..! the only thing u need 2 be sure of is that it will take her to heaven and back.. dont give up lick it long..
recomendations to the men.. lick carefully..lightly..slow.. with tha toungue tip!! and we do need tha clit to be stimulated.. thats the point with the hole lickin thing..hihihihihihihih..
GO NOW and practise my adwise and the women aint gonna go around and nag on ya ass!!!
You dont even have to do it in tha bed u know..
We must put this subject in a higher level..this need to be put out in the air.. THE WOMEN NEED TO BE LICKED!! everywhere anywhere anyhow..! the only thing u need 2 be sure of is that it will take her to heaven and back.. dont give up lick it long..
recomendations to the men.. lick carefully..lightly..slow.. with tha toungue tip!! and we do need tha clit to be stimulated.. thats the point with the hole lickin thing..hihihihihihihih..
GO NOW and practise my adwise and the women aint gonna go around and nag on ya ass!!!
I have seen.. DARK REMAINS
this is the best i have seen in horror in a long time.. it was great..
5 out of 5
I have seen BLACK XMAS
and it was really good.. things aint what it seems to be..
a great horror movie nasty things happen..lol..
the best moments is when they look back to describe wut kinda man he is..
a 4 out of 5
Thursday, May 24, 2007
one time
Someone told me ..
That life should be beutiful, that life should be meaningful, that life would be exciting, that life would not always be wonderful..
Life should last for a long time, and when youre alive you should try it all, when youre young you should try it all..
Life is just a mysterious walk as the death noone knows why we are here noone knows why we disappear..
Life is great with tears and joy, love is the thing that keep us people going hate is the thing that destroyes..
Laughing and wishing for luck, live your life fulfilled to the edge of time cause noone knows how long the time's gonna be for you..
Forgive and forget is the greatest gift of them all...
I miss my grandpa ..love him so much...
That life should be beutiful, that life should be meaningful, that life would be exciting, that life would not always be wonderful..
Life should last for a long time, and when youre alive you should try it all, when youre young you should try it all..
Life is just a mysterious walk as the death noone knows why we are here noone knows why we disappear..
Life is great with tears and joy, love is the thing that keep us people going hate is the thing that destroyes..
Laughing and wishing for luck, live your life fulfilled to the edge of time cause noone knows how long the time's gonna be for you..
Forgive and forget is the greatest gift of them all...
I miss my grandpa ..love him so much...
baby baby
why cant we just stay together?
why cant we just stay forever?
I wanna roll inside your soul...
to know the things that you need and feel..
everytime youre by my side..
I cant get serious becouse you got me..
cold chill down my spine...
no no more tears show me a smile...
Deep inside..
I know you need it..
Just let it out, and get it on
You gotta feel it
Every time that you're by my side,
Just think it over, I'll make you glad
why cant we just stay forever?
I wanna roll inside your soul...
to know the things that you need and feel..
everytime youre by my side..
I cant get serious becouse you got me..
cold chill down my spine...
no no more tears show me a smile...
Deep inside..
I know you need it..
Just let it out, and get it on
You gotta feel it
Every time that you're by my side,
Just think it over, I'll make you glad
IF this ..
IS a dream... I dont ever wanna wake up again..<3>
ooo Iam having MR P in my mind all the time.. and he is just like a man shall be..just love the way he looks and the way he ACTS! the personality he have is just wiiho! funny , deep, loving, .. just like me and that says it all;)
ooo Iam having MR P in my mind all the time.. and he is just like a man shall be..just love the way he looks and the way he ACTS! the personality he have is just wiiho! funny , deep, loving, .. just like me and that says it all;)
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
I had NO idea
That kissing could make me SO hot...
Making love with the eyes is like you touch the other soul ..it makes my heart grasp for air even though I still breathe..
hands that meets for the first time..exploring , touching, making new expressions...
Life can be so wonderful I wish I could save the best moments in a box put them up and repeat them over and over again when I feel like it..
<3>
Making love with the eyes is like you touch the other soul ..it makes my heart grasp for air even though I still breathe..
hands that meets for the first time..exploring , touching, making new expressions...
Life can be so wonderful I wish I could save the best moments in a box put them up and repeat them over and over again when I feel like it..
<3>
IAM IN LOVE!!
The date with MR P was amazing.. the date went to a whole day that went to over the night that went to another day and then he left today this evening:D:D:DD:D Me is VERY happy!!
I felt the VIBE!!!! And I felt that this is the ONE I have been waiting for:D
He is AMAZING!!! in every fucking WAY!
OH boo my heart beats for you!!!
I felt the VIBE!!!! And I felt that this is the ONE I have been waiting for:D
He is AMAZING!!! in every fucking WAY!
OH boo my heart beats for you!!!
Monday, May 21, 2007
Awww me is gettin all hyped ova here...2morrow Iam gonna meet MR P fo tha first time:D:D:D:D..
Iam excited and although it feels so naturally Iam hyped..
Either way sum is gonna happen.. If he wants me or if his NOT!! lol..
I already know.. but thats gonna be a secret .. when The day has passed Iam gonna let you all know.!
This hottie is just so damm funny..but I must see have all sides u know..:! You gotta be various around me..
But as I said I already know wut I want!!!
So the last month have been like a real ride fo me.. date new men and meet new people..
The most important I have learned..is... 2 never trust anyone when it comes 2 certain things..
That Iam ONE mans woman..And I dont like this all dating stuff. .. That Iam after stability a man who I can love and a family cause The family is all 2 me..
That me and my kids are 1.. if you want me you want my kids too...
That the most important thing is communication and RESPECT sum men doesnt know the words meaning..so maybe we ladies need 2 learn them!!
Iam excited and although it feels so naturally Iam hyped..
Either way sum is gonna happen.. If he wants me or if his NOT!! lol..
I already know.. but thats gonna be a secret .. when The day has passed Iam gonna let you all know.!
This hottie is just so damm funny..but I must see have all sides u know..:! You gotta be various around me..
But as I said I already know wut I want!!!
So the last month have been like a real ride fo me.. date new men and meet new people..
The most important I have learned..is... 2 never trust anyone when it comes 2 certain things..
That Iam ONE mans woman..And I dont like this all dating stuff. .. That Iam after stability a man who I can love and a family cause The family is all 2 me..
That me and my kids are 1.. if you want me you want my kids too...
That the most important thing is communication and RESPECT sum men doesnt know the words meaning..so maybe we ladies need 2 learn them!!
ON MY WISH LIST
this hoody from Dereon .. luve it..Beyonce's clothing line is just the hot syte.. Iam gettin all hyped of all her clothes but this one is sooo MEEEEE!!
can you feel...
true happiness if you havent felt real sadness???
can you be able to love if you havent hate? ..
can you feel real safe if you havent feel unsafe?
The prettiest things in my eyes couldnt be real pretty if I hadnt experianced the worst ugly...
I could not feel how to have a home if I havent been away...
You can never get high If you havent been real LOW!
can you be able to love if you havent hate? ..
can you feel real safe if you havent feel unsafe?
The prettiest things in my eyes couldnt be real pretty if I hadnt experianced the worst ugly...
I could not feel how to have a home if I havent been away...
You can never get high If you havent been real LOW!
this is new shyte! hi hi
So tomorrow ME is gonna get sum big company from the capital.. Its tha MR P thats gonna visit my ass for tha first freakin time..
Yeah I feel freaky when it comes through my mind.. I feel all tensed..
First thing comes first and if all feels right Iam gonna give my self and stop being on the single market ...lol
I have realized HUNTING aint nothing for me.. I dont like it..I like stability and 2 wake up with same man every day..
So I give this is shoot but as I said first thing first and we will see...
When It comes to MR Smile I think Iam just not gonna never ever call him up again.. And when he calls am I gonna tell him that we are just too diffrent... damm I hate to tell stuff like that but its more kind to be honest and not to run away..
Even though he aint mean shyte to me he deserves respect..
If he aint call and he catch me up when Iam with MR P I donno wut to say .. MR P knows it anywayz and thats the most important..
AHHHH he makes my brain go sha la la la laaaaaaaa and that aint common ..
Damm Iam so curious..So tomorrow its tha Day... and now Am I gonna clean up...
Yeah I feel freaky when it comes through my mind.. I feel all tensed..
First thing comes first and if all feels right Iam gonna give my self and stop being on the single market ...lol
I have realized HUNTING aint nothing for me.. I dont like it..I like stability and 2 wake up with same man every day..
So I give this is shoot but as I said first thing first and we will see...
When It comes to MR Smile I think Iam just not gonna never ever call him up again.. And when he calls am I gonna tell him that we are just too diffrent... damm I hate to tell stuff like that but its more kind to be honest and not to run away..
Even though he aint mean shyte to me he deserves respect..
If he aint call and he catch me up when Iam with MR P I donno wut to say .. MR P knows it anywayz and thats the most important..
AHHHH he makes my brain go sha la la la laaaaaaaa and that aint common ..
Damm Iam so curious..So tomorrow its tha Day... and now Am I gonna clean up...
Sunday, May 20, 2007
2 moving forward ..
Can a person be enough educated? can a person be enough self educated that we stop 2 move forward and stand still in our own development?
I think that every day is like an adventure.. you will learn you will grow you will move forward weather you like it or not...
Sum people are scurred 2 death to know that they are movin ,that things changes around them .. the only thing you can do is accept the fact..
This fact doesnt wanna be accepted and this drives people 2 very weird stuff as plastic surgery..as leavin their life partner that they had for 25 years.. They dont wanna be old they dont wanna change..
I aint afraid to grow I aint afraid to develop.. The things that I can admit that Iam afraid of,, is all deseases that come with age.. Iam afraid of gettin 2 loose my self who Iam.. I wanna look and this is very superficial..like I look...I dont wanna be all wrinkle and grey u know..
But this is also a fact that I have to accept..
So I understand that people are afraid.. afraid of changes even though they are naturally and good ..
But as Tupac said "changes are good" and I agree...theres nothing bad that doesnt have any good with it!! thats the truth people...
I think that every day is like an adventure.. you will learn you will grow you will move forward weather you like it or not...
Sum people are scurred 2 death to know that they are movin ,that things changes around them .. the only thing you can do is accept the fact..
This fact doesnt wanna be accepted and this drives people 2 very weird stuff as plastic surgery..as leavin their life partner that they had for 25 years.. They dont wanna be old they dont wanna change..
I aint afraid to grow I aint afraid to develop.. The things that I can admit that Iam afraid of,, is all deseases that come with age.. Iam afraid of gettin 2 loose my self who Iam.. I wanna look and this is very superficial..like I look...I dont wanna be all wrinkle and grey u know..
But this is also a fact that I have to accept..
So I understand that people are afraid.. afraid of changes even though they are naturally and good ..
But as Tupac said "changes are good" and I agree...theres nothing bad that doesnt have any good with it!! thats the truth people...
love is...
LOVE IS LIKE HANDING SOMEONE A GUN...POINTING IT AT YOUR HEART...AND TRUSTING THEM ENOUGH..TO NEVER PULL THE TRIGGER..
THATS LOVE...
TRUST...
THATS LOVE...
TRUST...
THE WEEKEND
was mostly spent doin shopping ..but also in my friend Tina's moms car...
Home just chilled..and talking on phone and msn.. Mostly with MR P then..hihihihihihi..<3
Friday I bought myself a cam just becouse it was cheap ..someone had returned it and they had changed the prize ALOT!! so worth it..
NO I DONT SHOW MYSELF NAKED IN CAM!!! so stop asking...NO I DONT EVEN FLASH MY BOOBS!!
I have ..
start 2 talk to this guy..MR P ,,he is very much like me.. yes we met on the NET.. well I havent met his fine ass yet, but I will ..He seems like a really intresting person.. The best we got alot in common..
MR Smile is 2 mature 4 me I have realized..and he still got these troubbles with his ex.. I can feel he havent moved on yet..
I need someone who have the same values like me..I need someone mature but still with his sense of humor and the inner chaild in him..
MR P seems like a really good intresting person..fo real! besides he have my style on the outside u know..
The dating part with MR Smile is over..finished.. finito..
MR Smile is 2 mature 4 me I have realized..and he still got these troubbles with his ex.. I can feel he havent moved on yet..
I need someone who have the same values like me..I need someone mature but still with his sense of humor and the inner chaild in him..
MR P seems like a really good intresting person..fo real! besides he have my style on the outside u know..
The dating part with MR Smile is over..finished.. finito..
Saturday, May 19, 2007
hey ..
So its sat..
Iam thinkin of wut life would and could offer me..
I know this aint what I deserve.. I know life is more,,, I know its not ment 2 be like this,..
So everything changes ass time pass by... People grow ..they get mature...they change both inthe way they see things and the way they belive..
The things I belived in when I was 14 ..arnt the way I belive in now... I have the Values and My values are the same as always.. Those I have gotten from my family ..and sum I have created my self..
Life is an endless road ..and one thing I do know..I dont wanna walk it alone.. I want someone who loves me and respect me to walk it with me..
I can say that I aint searchin for that special someone.. I know he will come 2 me when its time for it...
Iam thinkin of wut life would and could offer me..
I know this aint what I deserve.. I know life is more,,, I know its not ment 2 be like this,..
So everything changes ass time pass by... People grow ..they get mature...they change both inthe way they see things and the way they belive..
The things I belived in when I was 14 ..arnt the way I belive in now... I have the Values and My values are the same as always.. Those I have gotten from my family ..and sum I have created my self..
Life is an endless road ..and one thing I do know..I dont wanna walk it alone.. I want someone who loves me and respect me to walk it with me..
I can say that I aint searchin for that special someone.. I know he will come 2 me when its time for it...
Thursday, May 17, 2007
I have seen Gangbangin fo Life 2006 (Bloods and crips)
this shyte is REALITY!! 2 real fo TV ..thats wassup!! Me being a big Fan of real hood documentairyz.. and this one was good..people are acting like people do 2 get food on tha table u know.. I FEEL 4 them and they are born in it live it and die in it!!
a blood or a crip? well you choose!
4 out of 5!
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
SO
MR niceGuy have said it!! Mr niceGuy have spoken!!! right threw he just blowed it up in my face!!
He wants me..:O.. OOOok I knew it:D
He cant 4 get my lipz.. so maybe Iam gonna teach this nice thing how the hell we Gemini's are in the bed!
I know my lipz are special..both up and down:D
So this is gettin freaky cause I aint do more then one date at time.. I date one...cause Iam one mans woman ONLY!!!
But as I said 2 this one.. I can be ya friend and hang out u know.. nothing more nothing less...
keep it up guys..this bitch is movin fast...LMAO!
He wants me..:O.. OOOok I knew it:D
He cant 4 get my lipz.. so maybe Iam gonna teach this nice thing how the hell we Gemini's are in the bed!
I know my lipz are special..both up and down:D
So this is gettin freaky cause I aint do more then one date at time.. I date one...cause Iam one mans woman ONLY!!!
But as I said 2 this one.. I can be ya friend and hang out u know.. nothing more nothing less...
keep it up guys..this bitch is movin fast...LMAO!
teardropz..
I can see it in your eyes..
How long can I count the sorrows in your heart...
for how long can I see my own pain reflections in your eyes?
The mirror shine back..there is no picture...
heaven and hell is close ..
The eyes the tears ...ready to fall... ready to drop...
Its in your eyes .. I can see my own pain ...I can see my own rain...
Teardropz fall from the sky from heaven to the hell on this earth...
pain and suffering ...
Your eyes are my mirror...
How long can I count the sorrows in your heart...
for how long can I see my own pain reflections in your eyes?
The mirror shine back..there is no picture...
heaven and hell is close ..
The eyes the tears ...ready to fall... ready to drop...
Its in your eyes .. I can see my own pain ...I can see my own rain...
Teardropz fall from the sky from heaven to the hell on this earth...
pain and suffering ...
Your eyes are my mirror...
I have done
the date thiiing..2 day this whole day.. With MR Smile for the 8th time... we did sum talking..we did sum eating..we did sum kissin.. oh yeah ALOT of kissin.....
It was nothin like when we were with the kids..it was so relaxed..
YEEES we did it.. ! the whole time we actually spent in tha bed... OH yes Sexxymami..was all naked and then she slept like a baby.. 4 2 hours.. :O..woked up cause it was freezing cold and I was All naked the hair on my body stood up..
well we went up and just sat and ate some water melon.. I teased him cause he ate the pip..
Me is all exhausted and Now am I gonna chill eat some chicken and fries..with garlic and just be relaxed:PPPPPPPP
So the whole day went by and damm in his company u cant be bored you know.. I laughed alot and I always do ..but even in bed..
My bad confidance blowed away when he looked at my eyes and sad omg you look so HOT mami! I love that ass u have and those eyes make my knees week...
I HAVE THE FUCKIN POWER!!! me like;D
It was nothin like when we were with the kids..it was so relaxed..
YEEES we did it.. ! the whole time we actually spent in tha bed... OH yes Sexxymami..was all naked and then she slept like a baby.. 4 2 hours.. :O..woked up cause it was freezing cold and I was All naked the hair on my body stood up..
well we went up and just sat and ate some water melon.. I teased him cause he ate the pip..
Me is all exhausted and Now am I gonna chill eat some chicken and fries..with garlic and just be relaxed:PPPPPPPP
So the whole day went by and damm in his company u cant be bored you know.. I laughed alot and I always do ..but even in bed..
My bad confidance blowed away when he looked at my eyes and sad omg you look so HOT mami! I love that ass u have and those eyes make my knees week...
I HAVE THE FUCKIN POWER!!! me like;D
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
I have
burned up some of my hair..!!! and I am fucked up cause it doesnt smell good..and DAMM I dont wanna have it like this..it was just a bit of my side hair but still... OHHHHHHHHHH God whyyyyyyyyyyyyyy???
I feel badly sorry foe my white ass and I want some symphaty... FEEL 4 me...!
I feel badly sorry foe my white ass and I want some symphaty... FEEL 4 me...!
CRAZY IN LOVE
I look and stare so deep in your eyes,I touch on you more and more every time,When you leave I'm begging you not to go,Call your name two or three times in a row,Such a funny thing for me to try to explain,How I'm feeling and my pride is the one to blame.'Cause I know I don't understand,Just how your love you are doing no one else can.
When I talk to my friends so quietly,Who he think he is? Look at what you did to me,Tennis shoes, don't even need to buy a new dress,If you ain't there ain't nobody else to impress,The way that you know what I thought I knew,It's the beat my heart skips when I'm with you,But I still don't understand,Just how the love you are doing no one else can.
freedom..
Is 2 be able to say what u wanna ...is when u can act how u wanna...when u are not refused to be who u are...
Freedom is to show love ..when U cant... freedom is 2 get love even if you dont deserve it...
Freedom is trust...when U feel the trust u feel more free..
Freedom is to show love ..when U cant... freedom is 2 get love even if you dont deserve it...
Freedom is trust...when U feel the trust u feel more free..
this day ...
was special.. :D Iam about to be a Godmother for the first time in october some day..hihi..
So this day we went to see the baby through ultrasound..OMG!! the baby sucked on his thumb,,.,yes I say his cause I belive its gonna be a BOY!!!
OH yes It was beutiful ...!!! I was so hooked by the screen I wanted to see more ..!
Iam sooo excited..! maybe more then the mommy hi hi:)
well Iam just crazy in kids and babies are the cutest ever...I long for the day Iam gettin my own little baby..but until then this is gonna be the little one and he will always be my Godson..
Maybe it is a girl I dont mind:D Iam Happy whatever it is just its healthy and feel good u know..
I worked my ass at the gym 2.. my legs feel like spaghetti..all soft lol..
So this day we went to see the baby through ultrasound..OMG!! the baby sucked on his thumb,,.,yes I say his cause I belive its gonna be a BOY!!!
OH yes It was beutiful ...!!! I was so hooked by the screen I wanted to see more ..!
Iam sooo excited..! maybe more then the mommy hi hi:)
well Iam just crazy in kids and babies are the cutest ever...I long for the day Iam gettin my own little baby..but until then this is gonna be the little one and he will always be my Godson..
Maybe it is a girl I dont mind:D Iam Happy whatever it is just its healthy and feel good u know..
I worked my ass at the gym 2.. my legs feel like spaghetti..all soft lol..
Monday, May 14, 2007
hunk of the day ...
Javiier u r the hottest man.. mmm sexy hot latino..the swedish girlz is going 2 get crazy ova u fine ass
my heart
could have stopped the minutes he kissed my lipz.. he touched my neck softly with his lips.. he bite my ears like he ate something very tenderly..in my mind my imagination was runnin free.. it was HOT!
then he stopped cause the kids come runnin in the room... as soon as they left he started ...slowly with his inner confidant existance 2 touch my head...he looked me in my eyes while he teasefully bite my under lip.. softly he let it go.. with a smile that could melt the ice in Antarktic and with playful brown eyes with a glow like starz only have he said...- so I have missed you, when am I gonna be alone with you?
I could feel my cheeks got all blushy and as usual I twisted my hair like a crazy bitch...
-when ever..just call I said with a smile and then I giggled like I always do...
this man make me blush... this man make me feel insecure...thats sick.. and damm iam nervous 4 tha day ill be alone with him..this wednesday its gonna happen..
then he stopped cause the kids come runnin in the room... as soon as they left he started ...slowly with his inner confidant existance 2 touch my head...he looked me in my eyes while he teasefully bite my under lip.. softly he let it go.. with a smile that could melt the ice in Antarktic and with playful brown eyes with a glow like starz only have he said...- so I have missed you, when am I gonna be alone with you?
I could feel my cheeks got all blushy and as usual I twisted my hair like a crazy bitch...
-when ever..just call I said with a smile and then I giggled like I always do...
this man make me blush... this man make me feel insecure...thats sick.. and damm iam nervous 4 tha day ill be alone with him..this wednesday its gonna happen..
today
MR Smile is coming ova 2 my house..damm Iam nervous.. I just want him need 2 see him... Its been awhile since ..This time Iam gonna be relaxed and just forward 2 him...
NO sex..hihi... but forward in tha body language...Im me and if he cant handle it theres the door..
And when I close my eyes my confidance is there... when I open them when he is around it has blown away..:S
I will hit up with more later... MUHAZZZ 2 all of ya... Sexxymami aka PimpMama..is spreadin some swedish LUUUUVE!!! holla...
NO sex..hihi... but forward in tha body language...Im me and if he cant handle it theres the door..
And when I close my eyes my confidance is there... when I open them when he is around it has blown away..:S
I will hit up with more later... MUHAZZZ 2 all of ya... Sexxymami aka PimpMama..is spreadin some swedish LUUUUVE!!! holla...
Sunday, May 13, 2007
Wut got me mad?
- being accused false
- get blame for sum I dint do..
- false people...
- people who dont belive me..
- people who wanna change others
- people who only cares about the outside..
- people who judge..
- mean people ..
- slow people who have their brain but they act stupied...
wise words
life is like a hard dick suck it out and it will be soft tease it and it will stay hard 4 eva
from moments
to eternity ... silence and breathing who end up in lost air...
Between us are the space ..between other minds and spirit...so much are are filled in the corners..
why is the air so soft...when it softly touch my skin ..I close my eyes pretend its your hands who give me the touch..
once the heart is open its ready to close... a moment who could end up til eternity..
Between us are the space ..between other minds and spirit...so much are are filled in the corners..
why is the air so soft...when it softly touch my skin ..I close my eyes pretend its your hands who give me the touch..
once the heart is open its ready to close... a moment who could end up til eternity..
I recomend AKON... african westside the official mixtape
this one is great... songtrack number 16 In your eyes.. Is beutiful poetry with his angel voice...
I have seen Haunted Highway..
Dont see it!! it only takes up ya time...and time is money.. so DONT!!! u will be so disappointed... Cant they do scary movies anymore? this shit cant be called scary/horror or anuthing like it...
This is just a nap-bed time story 4 me..
1 out of 5
I have seen Little Man
this sit is the funniest ever..!!! who the hell comes up with this??? OMG I laughed SOOOO much... see this no regrets...ya'll gonna luve it!
The best is the little man with a BIG dick..LMAOo look at it!!
This is 5+
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