little PILLAN!!! thanx for excisting!! MUAHZ!!!!

doin sum shoppin!!!

I cant say

wut it is... or wut its not..
IT just ARE!!!
people act crazy... but maybe its me that are crazy???
I dont know..and I dont care... I just feel like my freedom aint a playground and people aint gonna play me ..YA DIG???

life is just 2 short!

YAO BITCHES!!!

WATCH OUT FOR THE COPZ!!!

ME...yesterdaaaaaaaay....

after Iam done......

me before I am done for the evening...

HOLA MIGENTE!!!

como esta????

so my laundrey is done... now its the freakin fuckin boring cleaning the apartment 2 do... and as always when Iam bored I glue my ass hard near the computer...lol...

RIGHT NOW...music... BUSTA RHYMES..with,..break ya neck!!!
Clothes...PINK...PYJAMAS..
mood...EXCITING../boring...
NEEDS 4?...some punching with ICE...
hate.? that my fridge is nearly empty and I dont have cash!

BESOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PLAYERZ

2 play someone you need 2 be sure that he/she aint playing with you... if thats the case you AINT a player..you are the one being played...

To play someone is to give them attention and all the others they can be in need of..except your heart!!!

you dont have to lie..just hide the truth!

you can have alot of victims but u need 2 keep them far away from eachother...

If you once get caught...move on!!!!!

"how many lickz"

I GIVE MY LIFE!!!!

KING MIDAS

MUHAHAHAHHAHA

you can dis me... If you do I dont CARE! cause Iam cold as iCE for tha moment... today I must take a ppower nap..! I need it right now.. so.. cheers people.. I will kick it in my bed...jelous??? I bet you have never took a nap with me...HAHAHHAHA..
MUAHZ.. see YA!

ANDREE nad JO-ICe..its blurry though..just as they..MUAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA

me lookingin tha mirror...look at my shirt...NEW YORK!

JO-ICE is touchin his eye lashes for like the 65th time at the friday!

Saturday mornin!

Its saturday mornin.. I have so much to do with so little time and I havent even slept enough..(like usual...
Tonight its partying! AGAIN..lol..
This time its dancing in the clubs thats on the list...
ITs only summer 2007 once thats wassup people...
I must clean ..do laundrey...get everything fixed before people is start to come over... so I have ALOT 2 do.. and now its morning 8.02.. thats SICK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"is it going is it going isssss it going???!! I dont know what youre looking for..."

party TIME!!!

Sofia & Sofia ...MUAHZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!!!

I still look soft but I was hype no sleep and just party!

me ..amanda...sofia.... THIHIHIHIHIHIHIH

Vatos Locos...

this is so serious!!! my life... hihihihiihii

me is all cool in my glasses!

me being attact by him.. and I can promise it wasnt NICE!!!!!

JO-ICE is acting like a thug...;)

OLD swedish videos... we are VIKINGZ,... wut u think???

IN COMMAND....by..ROB N RAZ




DR ALBAN with.. NO COKE! feel the vIBESSSSSSSSSSS...LMAOoooo

LMAOo..the only bad thing about this is she is to fat! ( didnt ever know I could say that!!!! enjoy PARIS HILTON!!! or not:D:DD::D:D:D:

me eyes..

this week I have just heard 7 times I have like nice eyes.. people wanna drawn in them, but I aint a murderer..LOL.,.¨

"so keep on looking ..keep on dreamin.. when your heart is on fire me will leavin!"

this fine june night ...

talking 2 Mr Aiiiight! thats the truth.. i show myself in cam.. I can feel he cant wait to do me!!! LMAOOooooooo........... THATS WASSUP SUCKERZ!!!!

ESMERALDA

summer 2007

summer 2007 is really here! 2-day was it my daughters ´first graduation ..
I was there ofcourse ..JO-ICE was 2 and he caught it on some movie..
my baby have become a young teenager.. she is 8 and soon she is a teenager.. damm!

well the heat wasnt to much today..thank you! ..

so wuts gonna happen tonite?????? not a darn thang.. and if u are intrested to make my night.. gimme a shout..holla!!!

A CLOSEUP!!!

wise words..

no words that arent spoken is meant to be quiet

THE DAY!!!!

and we ate sum lunch in the nice weather! me..JO-ICE ..MIA ..PILLAN!! JO-ICE hustled ALOT!! Iam gonna pimp this little mans ASS!! it will be my pleasure and HIS LUCK!!!!!

he was also very busy @ and with his 5 phones... !

JO-ICE was being such a gangsta!!!!

we met my beautyful baby-sister AMANDA and her friend ELLIE!

me was real hot in those glasses!!

this day started with me hearing "korvbröd" and then my alarm went off! .. somebody dreweled on their pillow ..and I can say this it WASNT me.. a picture sayz more then words in this subject..Lmao.. JO-ICE is tha mothafuckin drewler.. !!

SO ..

here Iam sittin and thinking of gettin myself a little PITBULL!! I wanna have a dog and now its like the time..
Iam going to ask my friend the cute ICE if he want one 2.. then we can get them together..!
well we will see..
The dog man who had the puppies said there were in alot of colours and both sex..lol..
I want one who aint a bitch ..LMAO..thats wassup.. we need some testosterone in this family!! the truth people the TRUTH!!

"time 2 live..time 2 die..time 2 laugh..time 2 cry.."

shit happen ..

and life goes ON!!!!!!!

Whats my worst sides??

Iam stubborn..til death...
I can get real angry when Iam faced with people who are act stupied..
sometimes I dont have patience..
I can be real low from time 2 time...
I can have the worst confidance..
I can be real impulsive...
I raise my voice alot but thats just becouse I get Hype ..
I can be real stressed...

my party song !!!

CUTIES!!!

esmeralda & amanda!!

just ..

leave me alone... just give me a break...
I cant feel what I think.. I cant hear my heart beats..

MY SISTER DAUGHTERS GRADUATION!!!!!

My sister daughter FREDRIKA with my girlz!!

B-DAY!! 2 of my bitches;)

the dark one is my sister Amanda and blondy is Sofia ..

B-DAY!!!

Iam SHITTY!!

....

Iam away in my head.. Iam dead in my heart..
My ex is still gettin his way like wrappin his own stregnth around me like a hard spider web.. I can never get away fron his dirty hands and evil minds..

Iam COLD as ice.. hard as STONE.. I have been burned of the FIRE...

the sun is shining and Iam going out and lay in the grass.. instead of sittin here... talking to my friends get me in a better mood maybe..
and for all of you I dont talk 2.. love you!!

"i know i havent been so glad cause I didnt tell the truth...maybe it will take one eternity before I know what real lonlyness is"

open your heart... and then someone will fuck it!!

2 much!!!!!!!!!!

2 much is happening right now and Ia hiding .. I cant live I cant breathe I cant laugh I cant cry...
life is what it is.. I have 2 accept it or not...
even though I feel like I wanna scream and cry I cant.. 2 much pain, 2 many words 2 say.. life aint treatin me good life is a bitch and then >I have 2 be one 2.. too survive ..
I cant be livin dead I must be livin livin...

feel my words...

OHHHH LA LAAAAAA bitches!!!!

theres just 2 much going on right now!! I cant tell you but its just 2 much!! Iam fucken drunk again! and Iam at this party ..
People are all crazy it must be becouse of the sun and the heat! the sun is makin people do things they dont normally do.. those words took me 10 min. 2 write that I call "REACTION" lmaoo............
this fine late saturday is spinning too fast.. hold on to your hats.. keep the seatbelts on.. life is gonna escalade and U cant do nothing about it!!!

"hold on..do you feel a little stronger...hold on 2 mee..hold on.. everythings gonna be alright..just hold on 2 me tonight"

hey there!

the day after.. WIHOOooo I had sooo much fuckin FUN! Now Iam gettin ready for my sisters daughters graduation..
well I can say MY B-DAY was great..thanxx ALL.. but to write about all ..(I dont feel for it..!
BUT its saturday ..OUT in the sun all gettin all shitty!

MUAHZ

tomorrow ..

is it my birthday... but it doesnt feel like it..
I have no plans..
I have no wishes..
I just need LOVE!!!

IT WAS A HOT & SUNNY DAY...

not even those BIG glasses could keep the sun away ...

case of the EX..

I ve got no more tears.. I still have my fears..
Its all becouse of you , what you did and how you still do...
even fire cant burn this pain away.. But I know I could never be with you I had to walk away..
haunted by this dream that follows me.. you hurting me you killing me..laughing saying you love me..
This isnt love it never was.. it was pain in the heart for both of us..
Now I have moved on.. My love for you is far ghone...
I cant remember when I felt this kinda strong ..even though the way to get here was oh so long..
this is the end my friend .. and a beautiful beggin..

ME WANT!!!

the newborn Wilma shes adoreable!

BYZ!! very famous in sweden check it OUT!

HEY NOW!

baby gotta come soon OR me is gettin all wicked...
He have this SEXXY-ass-BODY! and he is SO fuckin masculine.. Oh yeah he turns me on like noone have acomplish in bout a VERY long time..
wut can I say theres feeling I didnt know excisted anymore but he pulled em all out again..
So besides that I can only tell that my exciting day havent been excited at all... just boring.. cleaning clothes and all the other shyte..
The weather is so fucking beautiful and I sat at my balcony for like one hour and got freckles allover and turned red (ofcourse)..

phat bass

Tupac art!

so late in bed..

early up..
Iam going to the highlife middle spot of my Town..the big square ..when the sun is shining and the spring weather puts in this is where it ALL happen:D:D:D:D:D..
Now its summer and damm its people everywhere ..
actually I really really really need to do this BIF summer cleaning of my apartment.. but who wanna be inside this day?
I wanna be out talk to people spreading my luuuuuuuuuve to the world outside..

yes it is warm in sweden NO we dont have polar bears walking around LMAO..

sweden is the land of VIKINGS but its still summer here like there is in other parts of Europe..


"baby baby I get down on my knees for you"

musthavecoffee is taking over my brain so HAVE A FABOLOUS DAY!!!

you are being WATCHED

STILL love Beyonce!!!

Beyonce Shaking - Watch a funny movie here

I feel brainwashed..

Iam tired cause I can never get enough sleep how much I even try.. Iam tired but when the sun is shining its like a spotlight in my head and I become like so AWAKE..
wut can I say.. I brainwash my self with the sun glow who takes it way through my windows and my dark curtains into my eyes and find it ways through my deepest spot of my brain..
damm can someone put out the light just for one day??????????

"your poison runnin through my vains"

me ..

checkin myself out in tha mirror..

Some swedish old classic's..LOL ..this was BIG hits during 80's

ANKI with I was made for lovin you baby




LILLI o SUSSI boyfriend



LiLLI o SUSSI oh mama



TROLL jimmy dean



Tommy & TONE

OHHHHHHHH

My friend got her baby yesterday!!! daaaaaaaaamm a little gurl :D
I can admit Iam SO fuckin JELOUS.. I want a baby a little newborn baby who smells all clean and are soft and just soo freakin Tiny..
its beautiful ..as the baby crazy person Iam ..Im gonna stare at this little person and wish it ALL good in this world.. they are so innocent and clean and NOTHING can compare to them.. small angels with no wings..

Newborn babies always make me feel touched and then I can start 2 cry... just want to keep them all SAFE!!
Well I wish them all luck and I cant wait to see the little miracle...

have you ever felt like

afraid for changes even when you know they are really good for you?
You know that this will be what you absofuckinlutely want in the end and still you are afraid?
Even bad habits will be missed and longing fo even though you aint want em.. Its sort of an addiction and its the hardest addiction you can ever face..
The human brain is special both on good and bad terms.. we destroy things that are good and keep bad things happen.. the thing that drives us is our curiousity and the want for more excited feelings..
why is the bad things so fun? where is the excitement in being a foolish bitch in the end? well theres so much we cant explain , but as long we are aware of our behave we can do sum about it, its never too late..

"keep on walking tha road I will follow"

morphed..

this is how it is... agree???

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stole sum wise words...

"Every tick of the clock takes away something..."

stolen from yoghurt...... http://yoghurtscorner.blogspot.com/

you are

so far away from me but still so close...

I got this weirdest feelin about my self ... I have felt my grandpa's present for a few days here.. back and forth.. sometimes I have even thought I can see his shadow around ..just standin there like he is watchin me..
Well today some thoughts just came up like from no where.. like.."I must change the way I live my lifestyle" I aint immortal .. I must start 2 live healthy by the book ..like non smoking non drinking..alot of training.. and NO painkillerz..
OH maybe Iam really sick..maybe its just imagination ..I dont know..
But suddenly I got scared ...and I never get scared like this..
I talked to him like he could hear me, and Iam sure he did.. still I aint see him..

Many times in the past during the difficultes I had with my ex.. I cried and just wanted him to give me comfort and strength to keep going.. everytime I felt like he was near me and everytime I felt love and I did get more strength..
Just wonder if this is all imagination maybe Iam starting to get schitzofrenia? is it all fantasy's? IT CANT be.. and if it is..It still get me comfort and strength so it cant be bad...

I know when he was alive we had a special realtionship..but now when he is ghone ..he can feel all my pains all my happiness..he KNOWS all of me..

ME BEING morphed like everybody else.. with Beyonce ofcourse.. this was my first and definaitly not the best but not the last ..so keep up..:)

in the car gonna do sum shoppin.. BOOOOOOORING...still happy though:D

and when I went to get sum cash .. I nearly started to cry.. DAAAAAAAAAAAAAMM !! yes I know money isnt all.. but you gotta atleast have enough you know..

Do I have to go out and rob someone to get food on the table??

The swedish gouvernment can eat my poop..!! buck em all...

I FEEL YOUR WORDS!!

?

can I get a shot of sensations ? can i Have my mind open like its all free to read?
Did you read my pages? then explain to me why...
what are you what amI?
You can always keep my body prisoned but my mind is always free.. what does
page 27 tell you? is it you and me?
dont tell me things I wanna hear ..whisper in my ear all the things I fear...
at the bottom of the sea theres a box ..open that for me..
do you see the colour in my eyes? is it blue or is it just the colour you belive is blue?

YEAP its in my life!!! ..memories.. the good 90's

YES!!!!!!!

IAM A DICK SUCKER...& ME LIKE!!!!!!!!!!

MY BABE..

is soon coming back to me..:D And I cant wait til he do..;) Iam gonna lay between his legs for hours ..
"my sexy love..so sexy.. he makes the hairs of my neck stand up..just one touch"
I cant belive that someone can vibe me like that..
All my pain all my worries disappear when I look into his eyes... wich I by the way can stare into for hours..
But damm Iam scared.. to be hurt to be left alone to be standing there with a broke heart..
"I can see it in your eyes"

HAPPY music create a HAPPY mind!!!

Hunk of the day...

NE-YO so fuckin HOT!!!! he got the style going ON!

SMALL PIECES

ALSO MAKE A LARGE THING IN THE END!!

I NEED YA

Like A Scene From My Favorite Movie....
Hard To Control Myself When U Next To Me ....
If Its Against The Law To Love Then Sue Me....
MAN This Whole Thing Got Me In Disbelief .....
I Kno It Takes Time ......
To Build Somethin Thats Worth While ........
But Just In Case You Didn't Hear Me ............
Imma Say It Again More Clearly........
I Need Ya Like A Bed Need Some Covers........
I Need Ya..
Baby We Need Each Other .....
MAN I Need Ya Like A Comedian Needs A Joke .........
I Need Ya....
Baby I Need You The Most

I have been challenged by.. skinheadxbarbiedoll.. so here you GO!

RAINY HAPPY STYLE

SOPHISTICATED STYLE

PIPPI LONGSTOCKING STYLE

SHITTY RUMBLE AND HUMBLE STYLE

AND I CHALLANGE YOUGHURT & YO MAMA!!!!!

ITS a sweet sunday...

And me are already bored to death... or not...
SO its THE big cleaning day.. my baby is gettin older and bigger for everyday that goes.. and now she's gonna start to sleep in her own room...
As the worried and careing mother Iam, I must make myself sure of that she is gonna feel real safe in her room..
UNSAFETY is absolutely forbidden in my eyes ..a chaild is gonna feel safe and loved and IF she isnt then she aint ready to sleep alone..
I have got the advice not to be to kind ..but I belive that being hard in wrong situations to a chaild can cause fear in the future..

then I can also tell that I aint let my kids drive me around you know..

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this day..

have been like a mothafuckin pain shot in the ass...
what is sleep? I DONNO.. sleeping is fo me to wake up and feel all jiggy being like wiho and not being tired no more..
well I didnt get much sleep so to thus far I have been like drunk all day.. 3 people have asked if I have ben drinking sum funny stuff, or if Iam high on painkillers.. BUT as a mather and as a FACT ...::::: ME IS nothing.. me is just being me with alot of sand in my cute blue eyes.. My head is spinning so fast and Iam all hype...over this NOT gettin any sleep..

WELL... its a luxury problem and I aint complaining others ARE...

SO people get me right on this one.. I like to be a bitch when it comes to words u know.. I like to play it all hard in the game of control the words with my brain who later are spit out by my phat lipz..

People can call me crazy or bitch ..I DONT CARE!! youre the problem not me.. if you see a problem it is..if you aint recognize it it wont be... you with me???

AIIIIIIIIII PAPI!! EAT THIS! fast cars phat hoes and all those nuccas being WIHOOO

sum pics from the week doin the militairy style and smile as a sun.. yeah

TIDE!!

You have the bravest heart, the strongest emotions...After all the harm ive caused you still want my lovin..I think Ive lost your love..How can I be mad at you when Iam the one to blame? You have the bravest heart...Tide the strongest emotions...after all the harm Ive caused you still are my lovin...

I cant belive, I still recive so much affections from your side...If you could give me one more chance I would love to turn the tide...I would love to turn the TIDE!

are you an angel are you the one? heaven decide

TIME

is something people come up with..
TIME doesnt excist...TIME is nothing...life is a circle..its all eternity... TIME is NOTHING..
Then my question is.. if time didnt excist and wasnt such a huge thing in our lives would we all live longer?? would we all be stronger?? I belive we would.. I belive that if we ate when we were hungry, worked when we needed too slept whenever we felt for it.. we would all be HAPPY!!
life is a question , life is a mysteria, we can never find out anything that we aint meant to know ..

everything changes but is that the cause of time or the cause of life? is it as simple as that?? maybe life aint a mysteria? maybe it just are right here right now?

every part in this world is a pieca of a very big puzzle, it would never be hole if there was a piece missing..

Doin sum..

The rest of the dayz have pass by .. so FAST.. mostly in the bed with the little MR P..hihi ..
((He aint little he is more then 2 heads over me and Iam 5'6.. ))
but just chillin and deeptalking and laughing hysterical... thats LIFE people..
IAm HAPPY for real ..
I cant live in a lie u know and everything have its meaning.. all this dating with all these wrong people ..just maked me realize that is wasnt meant to be.. and if this aint meant to be it wont happen..if it is it will happen.. and Iam sure of this will..
My destiny is him.. can I say so?? I donno.. but I FEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEL 4 him..
OH babe U have no idea ..I FEEEEEEEEEL.. from your head to your toes..

MR P have you stole my heart???

THIS IS MY BOO!!!!!

MR P people.. wut you think????

The sunday continued...and monday stepped in.. ready or not..

And I picked up my darling sweetheart MR P .. laid in bed the whole sunday.. went up on monday still sick of the drinkz on the sat.
The Monday was all about cuttle and deeptalk.. this man IS SO damm FUNNY!! I can laugh myself to tears like 10 times/hour ..
I love men who can make me laugh.. so thank u ..for sendin him:D

I have realized.. same kids play best.. ya dig? its all about culture or how u are raised what values are important.. and I belive this is true.. I belive IT can last longer if you are similair.. not to much but like I said values in life and if you have the same life plan...

the SUNDAY...this is how I look when I have the worst HUNGOVA..

was A pain in the ASS...truly madly deeply.. I WAS so sick.. the worst HUNGova I have ever had..

I never use 2 get sick the day after.. but this time i was..

And my babe MR P was going to visit me.. I had the worst pain in my head and all I could think about was him and that I shuldnt miss to meet his fine ass at the bus...

I know what hell is like.. LMAO.. well its gonna take a while 4 me to get ova this memory how a hungova can feel like..lol..

As they say...you get what you deserve..;)

so WHAT have happen..

heres tha STORY people..

SATURDAY was being out with my big siss ..and was SO damm DRUNK!!! we went to diffrent clubs and danced ..I danced around tha pole and that gave me need fo more.. IWANNA have a POLE!!! gimme.... pleazeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..

maybe I HAD 2 fun..