is it hard 2 be loved??

It gives me bad creeps and I feel like I wanna lay on the floor and just slowly die.. I feel like I dont understand anything and actually I DONT!!! .. what is love and why and how can someone love me?? do I deserve 2 be loved?? why do I feel like its hard to feel the love u get from others.. why is it strengle me like the rope around my neck..? I have my own theory and I belive that I have been through when it comes to that someone loves me or likes me have been all HELL! and my head always reminds me about that but my heart wants to move on...
This causes the strengle rope thing..and I feel so scared ...maybe I cant be free?? maybe I will be like a prisoner in the relation who said the caus is love..

I know in my heart this cant happen to me again, but I cant help feeling this way..

MY HOUSE..its my balcony thats in the corner... after the car..LOL

TIGER...

going 2 tha GYM!

ME and TURBO!

Wresting at Pillans chair,,..

Me and MADDE!! the little hunny!

work out..

In this summer heat I have been a good gurl... been working my ass at the gym so hard.. It was so HOT and the sweeat was drippin from my body I was like all fucked up after the hour..

Then I went to my girl Mia and ate sum fish ..very healthy.. some salty licorice was the top of the day...

Iam all exhausted and will be going to bed early for a change...

I would walk on water...

13 is the number of freedom... Its also gonne be printed at my body in the nearest future!!

1 reason

I could give you more...but I wont... the reason is.. I must continue with my life..!!!

maybe Iam one........

Hunk of the day...mexicano sexyness...

A CLOSEUP!!!

tell it 2 my heart!

thoughts from an open heart...

Scared of love but I wanna feel it all the time...
scared of a relationship but still I want it...
Scared of being hurt but I will take the chance...
Scared of speaking about my emotions but I will do it to you...
Scared of being to much involved but I wanna be it in all whats about you..

Iam so scared but I wont let it destroy anything... I choose love, relationship, emotions and a hell lot of involvements..!!!

sweet lips..

I have realized that the size of lipz really mathers ... I really DONT like thin lipz.. I want my man to have bigger lipz than me and the size of his mouth should be bigger ..

soft sweet lipz is tha shyte... Its a big turn on... and mmmm I luve it!

A CLOSEUP!!!

hot day cool night!

summertime and the livin is easy...

why worrie..

break up...

remember this people???? LMAO...lol..lol..

SUMMERPICS...2007

SOMETIME..

LIFE FEELS JUST WIIIIIHOOOOOO...GREAT!!!!!!