THE day..by pics...

me eatin some blazed sugar-candy! it was messy!!!
Mia eatin sum Ice-cream..

ellen on tha rollercoaster! ellen & esmeralda & mia @ the bus

ellen and esmeralda waioting for the bus 2 the tivoli!

pics

were have I been?

the party tuesday night resulted in more party and I dont even know how fast the day went by..

NOW its end with this kinda parties .. FINITOOOOO.. no more... midsummer was spent home alone with kids good food and just the tv...

the friday was I hunting a doctor to discribe sum medications for me.. and I got them.. but not enough so I will continue this monday tuesday..

The days passes by and I cant grab their moments in my hand... I feel lost on the way.. I feel like I miss and loose the best when I aint everywhere..

In the way and searching for an answer I can tell you all that the thing I have call's ADHD and depressivity but I havent got it definaited yet..not on paper.. I dont know what's real or a dream...

well thats why its good 2 have the doctors around and talk 2 them.. am I normal? maybe Iam just so stuck in my own fighting as a single mother I get like a freak now and then -..and then Iam sooo LOW .. and then it goes around again..hmmm Iam waiting for answers..

so this night!

its party with MIA & Iam gonna HAVE FUN!!! dont know what we are gonna do..except drink sum wine and beer and just talk and listen 2 music..its girls night.. and just chill..



on friday its Midsummer and its the biggest like HOLIDAYS here in sweden!

We celebrate the light and the flowers and the middle of the year has passed by..
we eat and party and just hang with family and friends.. we drink vodka and eat raw fish!
wanna come??? YEYEYEYEYEYEYYE

I WANT!!! gimme!

2 anonymous!!!

I belive in God and jesus.. I have their love in my heart Iam baptiste in the swedish church and I go there on our big holidays ... x-mas..eastern..midsummer...u know.. BUT in sweden we aint like that much when it comes 2 livin like after God..
Iam raised like this.. Iam happy...I have my difficulties like everyone else.. as the young single mother Iam who have never been married cause here we dont care about marrige either...

we live in a diffrent culture ..and here its modern and life aint nothing like it is where u are..

belive is in the heart and as long as u belive things can only be better...

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yesterday

I was real upset.. I dont use 2 be.. Iam waiting for my period 2.. and have pain in my tummy but it aint coming.. so that makes me upset..
then people fuck with me!! and me is going CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!

All I wanna is to be able to do wut I wanna do without people acting like they are in charge over me!

Have a nice day!

~~BESO~~

BBBBBEEEEEEESSSSSSSSOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!

I LOVE IT BABY!!! whats love??? this is???? who knows?

yes

come'n get me....

Come with me for a while....
I'll take you and make you want me.....
It's not game,... show it's true....
You're welcome so move on over ...
I wanna be the one..., I wanna show you how it's done ....
Don't wanna let you down....,
I'm gonna make you satisfied....
I'm gonna show you how....
I'm gonna give you what you want.... What you want... baby what you really want...
Come'n get me if you love and respect me....
Come'n get me.... you will never forget me
I do know what you want.....
I'll show you... it's something special
Don't be shy...take my hand....
Believe me....we'll make it all right ....
I wanna be the one.... I wanna show you how it's done...

soon..

Iam gettin SO fuckin PISSED OFF and tired of all men and all people who doesnt UNDERSTAND me and my needs.. so I will disappear.. when I am all of you who have connection with me will KNOW!!!

this aint a threat this is a PROMISE!!!!!

No I aint gonna kill myself! I love life 2 much 4 that stupied shit!

BUT NOONE CAN TELL ME WUT 2 DO WHEN 2 DO..GET?????

I aint more then a human and I have feelings.. I think of myself in first perspective as YOU DO!


so GIMME a break !!

the saturdays night out pics...

from LOTUS LOUNGE !!! me and a friend! it doesnt look like me though!

wise words..

HATE KEEPS YOUR MIND STRONG...EXPECT NO MERCY!!!!

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LOL.. 4 swedish ONLY... others CAN check it out or ask 4 me 2 translate it!!!

sweet memories..fuck my heaaaart..HAHAHAH LMAOOO

DONT listen 2 it!

SAD me...

I NEVER LET YOU KNOW!!!!! I rather let u go....

I'll never let you know ...I rather let you go
The feelings that I've got is just so "damn right now"
This can not be for real...Can't tell you how I feel
I want you so damn much...I can't believe it's real
I'll never let you know ...I rather let you go
The feelings that I've got is just so "damn right now"
This can not be for real...Can't tell you how I feel
I want you so damn much...I can't believe it's real
I can not help I'm loving you
This can not be for real...Can't tell you how I feel
I want you so damn much....I can't believe it's real
I'll never let you know.... I rather let you go
The feelings that I've got is just so "damn right now"
This can not be for real...Can't tell you how I feel
I want you so damn much...I can't believe it's real

little PILLAN!!! thanx for excisting!! MUAHZ!!!!

doin sum shoppin!!!

I cant say

wut it is... or wut its not..
IT just ARE!!!
people act crazy... but maybe its me that are crazy???
I dont know..and I dont care... I just feel like my freedom aint a playground and people aint gonna play me ..YA DIG???

life is just 2 short!

YAO BITCHES!!!

WATCH OUT FOR THE COPZ!!!

ME...yesterdaaaaaaaay....

after Iam done......

me before I am done for the evening...

HOLA MIGENTE!!!

como esta????

so my laundrey is done... now its the freakin fuckin boring cleaning the apartment 2 do... and as always when Iam bored I glue my ass hard near the computer...lol...

RIGHT NOW...music... BUSTA RHYMES..with,..break ya neck!!!
Clothes...PINK...PYJAMAS..
mood...EXCITING../boring...
NEEDS 4?...some punching with ICE...
hate.? that my fridge is nearly empty and I dont have cash!

BESOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PLAYERZ

2 play someone you need 2 be sure that he/she aint playing with you... if thats the case you AINT a player..you are the one being played...

To play someone is to give them attention and all the others they can be in need of..except your heart!!!

you dont have to lie..just hide the truth!

you can have alot of victims but u need 2 keep them far away from eachother...

If you once get caught...move on!!!!!

"how many lickz"

I GIVE MY LIFE!!!!

KING MIDAS

MUHAHAHAHHAHA

you can dis me... If you do I dont CARE! cause Iam cold as iCE for tha moment... today I must take a ppower nap..! I need it right now.. so.. cheers people.. I will kick it in my bed...jelous??? I bet you have never took a nap with me...HAHAHHAHA..
MUAHZ.. see YA!

ANDREE nad JO-ICe..its blurry though..just as they..MUAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA

me lookingin tha mirror...look at my shirt...NEW YORK!

JO-ICE is touchin his eye lashes for like the 65th time at the friday!

Saturday mornin!

Its saturday mornin.. I have so much to do with so little time and I havent even slept enough..(like usual...
Tonight its partying! AGAIN..lol..
This time its dancing in the clubs thats on the list...
ITs only summer 2007 once thats wassup people...
I must clean ..do laundrey...get everything fixed before people is start to come over... so I have ALOT 2 do.. and now its morning 8.02.. thats SICK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"is it going is it going isssss it going???!! I dont know what youre looking for..."

party TIME!!!

Sofia & Sofia ...MUAHZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!!!

I still look soft but I was hype no sleep and just party!

me ..amanda...sofia.... THIHIHIHIHIHIHIH

Vatos Locos...

this is so serious!!! my life... hihihihiihii

me is all cool in my glasses!

me being attact by him.. and I can promise it wasnt NICE!!!!!

JO-ICE is acting like a thug...;)

OLD swedish videos... we are VIKINGZ,... wut u think???

IN COMMAND....by..ROB N RAZ




DR ALBAN with.. NO COKE! feel the vIBESSSSSSSSSSS...LMAOoooo

LMAOo..the only bad thing about this is she is to fat! ( didnt ever know I could say that!!!! enjoy PARIS HILTON!!! or not:D:DD::D:D:D:

me eyes..

this week I have just heard 7 times I have like nice eyes.. people wanna drawn in them, but I aint a murderer..LOL.,.¨

"so keep on looking ..keep on dreamin.. when your heart is on fire me will leavin!"

this fine june night ...

talking 2 Mr Aiiiight! thats the truth.. i show myself in cam.. I can feel he cant wait to do me!!! LMAOOooooooo........... THATS WASSUP SUCKERZ!!!!

ESMERALDA

summer 2007

summer 2007 is really here! 2-day was it my daughters ´first graduation ..
I was there ofcourse ..JO-ICE was 2 and he caught it on some movie..
my baby have become a young teenager.. she is 8 and soon she is a teenager.. damm!

well the heat wasnt to much today..thank you! ..

so wuts gonna happen tonite?????? not a darn thang.. and if u are intrested to make my night.. gimme a shout..holla!!!

A CLOSEUP!!!

wise words..

no words that arent spoken is meant to be quiet

THE DAY!!!!

and we ate sum lunch in the nice weather! me..JO-ICE ..MIA ..PILLAN!! JO-ICE hustled ALOT!! Iam gonna pimp this little mans ASS!! it will be my pleasure and HIS LUCK!!!!!

he was also very busy @ and with his 5 phones... !

JO-ICE was being such a gangsta!!!!

we met my beautyful baby-sister AMANDA and her friend ELLIE!

me was real hot in those glasses!!

this day started with me hearing "korvbröd" and then my alarm went off! .. somebody dreweled on their pillow ..and I can say this it WASNT me.. a picture sayz more then words in this subject..Lmao.. JO-ICE is tha mothafuckin drewler.. !!

SO ..

here Iam sittin and thinking of gettin myself a little PITBULL!! I wanna have a dog and now its like the time..
Iam going to ask my friend the cute ICE if he want one 2.. then we can get them together..!
well we will see..
The dog man who had the puppies said there were in alot of colours and both sex..lol..
I want one who aint a bitch ..LMAO..thats wassup.. we need some testosterone in this family!! the truth people the TRUTH!!

"time 2 live..time 2 die..time 2 laugh..time 2 cry.."

shit happen ..

and life goes ON!!!!!!!

Whats my worst sides??

Iam stubborn..til death...
I can get real angry when Iam faced with people who are act stupied..
sometimes I dont have patience..
I can be real low from time 2 time...
I can have the worst confidance..
I can be real impulsive...
I raise my voice alot but thats just becouse I get Hype ..
I can be real stressed...

my party song !!!

CUTIES!!!

esmeralda & amanda!!

just ..

leave me alone... just give me a break...
I cant feel what I think.. I cant hear my heart beats..

MY SISTER DAUGHTERS GRADUATION!!!!!

My sister daughter FREDRIKA with my girlz!!

B-DAY!! 2 of my bitches;)

the dark one is my sister Amanda and blondy is Sofia ..

B-DAY!!!

Iam SHITTY!!

....

Iam away in my head.. Iam dead in my heart..
My ex is still gettin his way like wrappin his own stregnth around me like a hard spider web.. I can never get away fron his dirty hands and evil minds..

Iam COLD as ice.. hard as STONE.. I have been burned of the FIRE...

the sun is shining and Iam going out and lay in the grass.. instead of sittin here... talking to my friends get me in a better mood maybe..
and for all of you I dont talk 2.. love you!!

"i know i havent been so glad cause I didnt tell the truth...maybe it will take one eternity before I know what real lonlyness is"

open your heart... and then someone will fuck it!!

2 much!!!!!!!!!!

2 much is happening right now and Ia hiding .. I cant live I cant breathe I cant laugh I cant cry...
life is what it is.. I have 2 accept it or not...
even though I feel like I wanna scream and cry I cant.. 2 much pain, 2 many words 2 say.. life aint treatin me good life is a bitch and then >I have 2 be one 2.. too survive ..
I cant be livin dead I must be livin livin...

feel my words...

OHHHH LA LAAAAAA bitches!!!!

theres just 2 much going on right now!! I cant tell you but its just 2 much!! Iam fucken drunk again! and Iam at this party ..
People are all crazy it must be becouse of the sun and the heat! the sun is makin people do things they dont normally do.. those words took me 10 min. 2 write that I call "REACTION" lmaoo............
this fine late saturday is spinning too fast.. hold on to your hats.. keep the seatbelts on.. life is gonna escalade and U cant do nothing about it!!!

"hold on..do you feel a little stronger...hold on 2 mee..hold on.. everythings gonna be alright..just hold on 2 me tonight"

hey there!

the day after.. WIHOOooo I had sooo much fuckin FUN! Now Iam gettin ready for my sisters daughters graduation..
well I can say MY B-DAY was great..thanxx ALL.. but to write about all ..(I dont feel for it..!
BUT its saturday ..OUT in the sun all gettin all shitty!

MUAHZ

tomorrow ..

is it my birthday... but it doesnt feel like it..
I have no plans..
I have no wishes..
I just need LOVE!!!

IT WAS A HOT & SUNNY DAY...

not even those BIG glasses could keep the sun away ...

case of the EX..

I ve got no more tears.. I still have my fears..
Its all becouse of you , what you did and how you still do...
even fire cant burn this pain away.. But I know I could never be with you I had to walk away..
haunted by this dream that follows me.. you hurting me you killing me..laughing saying you love me..
This isnt love it never was.. it was pain in the heart for both of us..
Now I have moved on.. My love for you is far ghone...
I cant remember when I felt this kinda strong ..even though the way to get here was oh so long..
this is the end my friend .. and a beautiful beggin..

ME WANT!!!

the newborn Wilma shes adoreable!

BYZ!! very famous in sweden check it OUT!

HEY NOW!

baby gotta come soon OR me is gettin all wicked...
He have this SEXXY-ass-BODY! and he is SO fuckin masculine.. Oh yeah he turns me on like noone have acomplish in bout a VERY long time..
wut can I say theres feeling I didnt know excisted anymore but he pulled em all out again..
So besides that I can only tell that my exciting day havent been excited at all... just boring.. cleaning clothes and all the other shyte..
The weather is so fucking beautiful and I sat at my balcony for like one hour and got freckles allover and turned red (ofcourse)..

phat bass

Tupac art!

so late in bed..

early up..
Iam going to the highlife middle spot of my Town..the big square ..when the sun is shining and the spring weather puts in this is where it ALL happen:D:D:D:D:D..
Now its summer and damm its people everywhere ..
actually I really really really need to do this BIF summer cleaning of my apartment.. but who wanna be inside this day?
I wanna be out talk to people spreading my luuuuuuuuuve to the world outside..

yes it is warm in sweden NO we dont have polar bears walking around LMAO..

sweden is the land of VIKINGS but its still summer here like there is in other parts of Europe..


"baby baby I get down on my knees for you"

musthavecoffee is taking over my brain so HAVE A FABOLOUS DAY!!!

you are being WATCHED

STILL love Beyonce!!!

Beyonce Shaking - Watch a funny movie here

I feel brainwashed..

Iam tired cause I can never get enough sleep how much I even try.. Iam tired but when the sun is shining its like a spotlight in my head and I become like so AWAKE..
wut can I say.. I brainwash my self with the sun glow who takes it way through my windows and my dark curtains into my eyes and find it ways through my deepest spot of my brain..
damm can someone put out the light just for one day??????????

"your poison runnin through my vains"

me ..

checkin myself out in tha mirror..