what you are ..by Lionel Richie.. a man who can put words on LOVE..

It's four in the morning and I'm sitting here at night
I'm writing you this song to say what's on my mind
I'm leaving in an hour and you won't be up in time to say goodbye (so whoa)
I'm putting this on tape (baby you're wonderful)
I really mean it babe (more than you will ever know)
I wish that I could stay (but I gotta go)
I'll be back in the meantime
Keep in mind that

You are
Is something to big for words
And it's my pleasure to love you for better or worse
Cause what you are
A beautiful mother to your kids
Sometimes it slips my mind so in case I forget
Girl you are better than (anything)
I ever had
You are the perfect love
Never give you up
Because you are my heart and soul my breath
Take it all till nothings left
Cause baby you are

Now no man has ever loved his woman
LIke I love you girl you know it's true
And no man can ever say he does a woman better than I do you
Cause that ain't true (here's what I do)
Send you fresh-cut roses every day of the week
Take you shopping whenever
But more importantly
Wrap my loving arms around you
To reassure everything I felt that first night
I feel it more

well well

Today .. I got some big news makin me one step closer to have full costidy of the kids..:D ..
something is tellin me that soon I can do what I want.. Damm you have no idea how glad I feel.. Not over the situation ... so dont misunderstand me.. just over the facts that someone as HE .. have Lost the control he thought he have over me..
Iam still the boss over me and my life.. and together we can decide whats good for the kids.. that wont change..
I know I am just too nice to him after all he have done.. but I cant be evil to a man that once had my heart.. thats sooo hard.. No I dont love him anymore, I dont hate him either.. I feel sorry for his white ass..
That one day he will wake up realize what he have destroyed and how he have treated the people he says he love.. well well... to feel sorry for him aint helping him either..
The only one who can help him is himself.. and GOD..

why dont you?

why dont you call me? pick up the phone and dial the number and call me..
you dont understand me know...you dont know what I mean..
if I told you once.. if I told you twice..you can see it in my eyes...
If you could only see ...it all belongs to me..
I love you so much..longing for you touch..so come and set me free.. forever yours I'll be..
baby you... forever you will be... in my heart I see...

Hunk of the day.. the man wich crazyness took our hearts..!!

NE-YO one of my favorite songs.. makes me shiver every time... HE GOT IT !!for real..

yes I know..

I know I need someone in my life soon.. I need to share the world with the unique me and only me..
As the true Gemini Iam.. Iam unique and special.. I always walk my own way.. sometimes I can change my oppinon in a second or two.. But still I stay hard in my belives..even if they just popped up in my brain or I had them there forever..
Iam happy..always positive..always find the good things out from the bad..
I wanna people to see me.. I want people to enjoy themself when they are around me...
I can have sooo FUN at the most boring place ever...if the moods there... and if it's really bad and bore me to death I take my stuff and me self and walk out from there to never ever come back..

This is MEEEE

WHAT IS THIS??

can make people climb mountains ..run for miles.. can drive people to insanity.. can drive you to do the most terrible awful things or the most wonderful beutiful actions the worlds ever seen..
people can get sick without it..or by it..
can make you sad and cry, can make you happy and laugh.. this is the driving behimd peoples actions..
what is it?

LOVE

ILOVE ILOVE
ILOVEYOU ILOVEYOU
ILOVEYOUILOVEYOUILOVE
ILOVEYOUILOVEYOUILOVE
ILOVEYOUILOVEYOUILOV
ILOVEYOUILOVEYOUILO
ILOVEYOUILOVEYOUIL
ILOVEYOUILOVEYOU
ILOVEYOUILOVEYO
ILOVEYOUILOVEY
ILOVEYOUILOV
ILOVEYOUILO
ILOVEYOUIL
ILOVEYOU
ILOVEYO
ILOVEY
ILOVE
ILOV
ILO
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an idea..

the swedish network have a site called eniro.se ... here can you look and search after numbers to people or look up who have called ya...
The idea is to put in pics of all the owners of the numbers... it would be sooooo much easier.. If I can see a person I have easier to remember who he/ she is..
So pics next to the number and name... how bout that?

so ..

the trial against my ex.. is coming up.. Iam nervous and imagine all kinda stuff..monday morning I'm gonna call the lawyer..

Iam gonna search for temporarly costidy.. and then full..

I aint takin his kids away from him, but Iam pullin me self away from his grasp.. he aint gonna keep on controlling me and my life ...
this is gonna stop.. and even though I can relate to how I once felt for him I can never forget the pain he caused me..
I know I dont deserve that ..I deserve true love being treated like the woman IAM..
the trial's on the 4 th of april.. a bit away..but still close..

I have seen.. DADDYS LITTLE GIRLS...

This one is a true love movie... man wants woman.. woman fall in love.. woman cant have man.. man wants woman .. woman is a lawyer.. man have 3 kids.. fighting in court with the woman as a lawyer.. well yes its end HAPPY!!! as all love movies do..

but it was good and it as a long time since I saw this kinda movie.. absolutely worth seeing.. 4 out of 5..

Maybe theres still hope for the LUUUUVEEEE!!!:)

I have seen GHOST RIDER ...

all I can say about this... too much fantasy for my taste.. this can be compared to X-men or Spiderman..

I cant say it's good even in it's genre.. It's too much driving ..too little love and action... the thrill is almost like zero...

It get's 1+ out of 5 and thats only cause of the burnin body looks cool.. and Roxy looks nice:)

what makes the world go round?

MONEY absolutely... religion.. drugs and alcohole.. pain, love and suffering..

stop being..

such a hater..
such a looser..
such a freak..
so damm hot!
so immature..
so sweet..
so weird...
such a troubble maker..
such a drama person!
so little..
so shitty!
so scurred..

JUST BE YA SELF!!!

loose got me loose

PARTY LIKE A ROCKSTAAAAAR... FUCKING LIKE A PORNSTAAAAAR....

loose got me loose....

right now..

time is.. 12.03 lunch time..
iam listening to JAY-Z - kingdome Come...
Iam going to eat potatoe and vegatable's soup..
I will talk to Dad on phone cause its his B-day...
I have a real headache..
people are callin me all the time..
saved by a GIANT...

FACE OF THE DAY

Myspace Smileys

quiz time.....

Free Myspace Quizzes

true or false..???????

do you care about others cause you just like it? or do you do it for some reason?
all people or doing something for some reason evenif it selfish or its just non selfish.. The big question here is to never send the outgoing message that you do it for someone else when its for ya self in the end... that is to be false... You wanna be false then continue...
Being true and real is to stand for the reasons admit it.. just being proud and continue..

emotions

need to be showed ... get them out of ya system... explode and scream , cry, laugh.. be hystrical...make some drama.. do whatever just be sure of get them out ..

To have stuck emotions will make you sick both physically and mentally.. so OUT with them ...whenever..wherever..

Iam and I aint ashamed of it!!!

to be straight or gay..

who cares?? this is like THE question during the 90's ..now its 2007 and not so far away 2010.. shall this question be so big?? The thing that its big is that the gay's do it big to..
They are like Iam GAY!! look at me strong and proud! well I can and I do understand them but ... now its time to drop it.. and drop it like NOW...
I have alot of friends being Gay so dont think Iam a hater now.. All people who know me , know Iam not..
I just feel like this subject has overcome its true and most important meaning..

Well to scream about ya sexuality aint hard... its just enoying for those who aint.. and I dont give a shit if someone is straight or gay or niether.. I care about the human being and not what you do in bed or with who..

Anyone outthere who feel me???

The cool married ones.. listen 2 this.. Kelis is hot and NAS is just YEAH!!

what did I do this date last year????

I was home studying at a test.. I was still in medical school.. doing my thang..I ate beef with potatoe and bearnaise sauce and salad.. drank some diet coke..

and I LUV IT TOO ..... GOD IS CLOSER THEN YOU BELIVE;)

SOFIA SAYS.. really often... often in english too..

1. You wish!!
2. in your dreams!!
3. thats HOT!!
4. SEXXY!!!!
5. sexy baby!
6. you are a kabanoss
7. i'm gonna pimp ya ass!
8. smack my punane!!
9. biatchhhh
10. i'm gonna BASSLA on ya!

whos your daddy??? YEAH YOU GUESSSSSSS!!!!

hunk of the day...

he was cute on oprah... looked like a puppie...

if I could use one word to describe you

it would be.....


IRRESISTIBLE

baby one more time..

who cares about Britney?? I just feel SAD and SORRY for her.. why cant people just accept that she is just a human just like us???? leave her alone...
The paparatzies is makin her this way.. She is just a young woman.. her life have more experiance then others in her age.. she needs to be human ..do what others have done or do..in her age..
Let her live!! and STOP following her.. Britney is a normal person with a talant... she is probably real sensitive.. so support britney :) I DO IT!!

whats new ?

did he ask me.. and I was like ...why do you care? why do you bother? are you real are you a dream? what are you to me and what am I to you?

when I said the words it was like a baloon filled with water splahed in my head.. my face felled red and warm, and I realised that this was not the important right now...
In this moment I feel lost just like I felt when I was hangin with my homegirl being 9 years old.. there was this sleepover in their caravan their holiday home..
And I had looked forward to this moment.. but when it was there .. all I did was longing for my mother.. I felt lost like a little rabbit with long ears hangin all over my face...

To feel lost is just a weird and uncomfortable feeling..

I dont wanna feel lost...

life is like a ...

Life is like a rollercoaster.. it goes up and down ..spinn you around.. !!!

I have seen SAW 3..

and it was MESSY!! thats some pretty wild bloody stuff in there..horror??? no .. I was more discusted by all the blood and my mind went ..how can someone come up with this..??

By the 3 movie of this kinda horror that Chainsaw put us in I must say that this was the wildest one.. not the best but definaitly not the worst.. If you see this one.. some of the puzzle pics fall to place but still theres many missing.. so my thought is when is Number 4 coming??? and 3+

So..

how about showin respect for other peoples blogs??????? if you aint like what someone writes about why read it...or why go to their blog?? in your own blog you can write or show what the hell you wanna..
I have choose to show the reality both in my life and in the rest of the world..
and like my name says..SEXXYMAMI...WITH OR WITHOUT YOU!!!! I dont care if you dont think like me.. I do it anyway!! thats who Iam in reality to! .. so if you aint got it ...I say it again..: I DONT CARE WHAT U THINK!!!!! this is what I think!!

And I have some polls..wich by the way is real weird.. in one I ask who am I to you..and some people alot actually have answered your friend with benefits. DAMM do I have that??? well thats pretty damm funny cause I havent had sex in a LONG time!! and Iam proud of being a woman who can wait until she have fall in love..
There's a chance that I aint gonna wait.. IF a person I feel for come in front of me..he will see!! And that aint a threat thats a promise...lol And he probably know who he is.. and for you who wonder who he is.. think about that guys!!

so ..

people come and people go.. the true ones stay by your side through good and bad.. dont let the true ones down..
Your family is your blood... but the true friends are your family..dont ever let them go..dont ever let them down..


so what have I done during this part of the New Year??? well I have :

• got this order from the police (against my ex)
• had 1 man living with me..who was gay (or not)
• been druged by 2 gay's
• erased all bad people from my life
• cleaned my place GOOOD!!
• been late with the rentbill for my AP..
• burned cash on clothes..
• cried to my ex. mother in law
• wished that a certain person could be with me like 10000000 times..
• realized that dreams and fantazies sometimes can be bad 4 u and make u feel BAD...

phat ass number 2...

i have seen HANNIBAL RISING..

This one is real GOOD!!! the best out of this 3... I think it have the thing that captures a person through the whole movie...

Now you understand the MR..and the brain of the complicated Hannibal..

Some parts of this movie makes me sick.. some parts are really discusting.. LOOK AT IT!!!!

it gets a strong 5.. the best movie ever since An american haunting!!!

who makes the evilness in the world?

Is it we who have it in us? or is it the devil? or is it God who cant protect us?

I belive we all are born good.. but that situations and people, talks and behaviors make us evil or not.. but is true evil only excisting in the real crazy heads? is this a sort of psychological phenomenom? or can a mentally healthy person be true evil?
I dont know.. but I know if you are doing evil stuff over and over again theres absolutely something wrong..

And if God got something to do with it? nope.. if he excist he made the human free and he cant control the humans thoughts..

the worst pic of the month... freaky shit..

Gangmember skinned alive in HAITI..

that makes me wonder how the hell can someone be NOT insane doing this??? how can people stand around looking at this.. ??? this is reality people!!!

I have seen GANGSTRESSES -female pimps,thugs and dealers

well this proov that women try to be equal to the men.. but when they do ..the men try to push em down and they do it in every way they can..

Alot of this movie is about sellin ya pussy and that some do all for cash..

I think this was real Good and it get the highest points.. look at it! and maybe u will learn some..

a list

• favorite name of kids? esmeralda, kingston
• are you thinkin of a man now? and who? well yes..and thats for me to know and u to think about..;)
• what did u eat last? macaroni and ham
• what music u listen 2 now? Mr Vegas more love... its so DAMM good.. makes my heart cry...
• what is your favorite letter? S ofcourse..;)
• are you curious of what will happen 2-morrow? hell yess..:D
• who's the sexiest people on earth? hmmm I think thats hard to answer, I love brown/black eyes though..
• whats the diffrence between me and you? hmmm Youre a man Iam a woman? hihihi
• candy that makes u happy? all salty stuff ;)

your poison runnin through my vains... since the first time I laid my eyes on you!!

in my dreams

every night..
I dream about u.. and it aint nice its just like how it was in our past together..
violence , argueing, crying, accusing, you hurting me, humilate me, disrespect me...
this is bad dreams and I know when this thing is closed... when u can come near me again you will HURT me... I KNOW IT!!

but I try to tell myself that maybe NOT...and I shouldnt trust my dreams so much..

my phat ass.. wich IAM PROUD OF!!!

maybe it doesnt show so much.. hmm there will be better in the future

TRUE LOVE DOES THAT EXCIST?????or is every love selfish and under total control??

this one

I will never ever forget.. I took you in .. treated you like my own family and you just trash talked me.. WHAT THE FUCK??!!! now every piece fall into the right spot and I KNOW!! you aint gonna think I'm a fuckin stupied .. to insult my brain capacity = big wrong..:s

GROW UP!! take responsibilities for ya own actions.. dont blame shit on others and dont even mix them into your problems..

my final word .. you will eat this UP

some guys

just cant keep themselves to the truth... they lie and mess up for everyone else.. those guys go under a certain name but I cant remember it in english..
I can say IAM SO TIRED of givin and showin love and help to people who aint even thank me.. they just disrespect me and piss me in my face.. you know who you are and I cant understand WHY? now I had enough with my own problems and my friends problems so I quit.. I will sort out the real friends from the energy eaters who only take and take.. ITS ENOUGH!!!!

well

it got through now he cant come near or contact me... but I have the feeling its something I'll be havin stuck up in my throat later in tha future..
but I live like today and now.. My god I need to do that ! Iam only 28 my life aint over now!!!
I have alot more to experiance.. K

why is it so hard for some people?

to accept who their kids are? what kinda lifestyle they choose? or maybe in sometimes they dont choose they just ARE!
respect your kids and their way they choose.. Give em love anyway..

I have just seen to much of the shit lately.. parents who dont care about their children cause they like the same sex.. its sick.. its still ya kid..no mather..the problems doesnt go away just cause you send the kids away or ignore em..

EDDIE MURPHY IS ALIVEEEEEE!!! lmao!!

my girl wants to party all the time...

I must say..

I have the best friends EVER!! and they are supporting me and help me.. LOVE YOU GUYS!!

if you could see

if you could see how you tearin me apart..would you stop?
if you could see my sleepness nights ...would you stop?
my words aint working, my cry aint give you the smallest idea, or it does but you aint give a shit!
why cant you care? why cant you stop? if someone hurts me they hurt the kids..

brown eyes...

there's something special with brown eyes..

today

have I been threated again.. and I cant understand what the hell is wrong with men who likes to threat women? dont they understand how damm afraid and nervous people get of that?
I am on my toes all day cause of this,, I cant ever feel safe,, its in my mind all day,, its tearing me UP!
And this kinda lies he belive in himself.. that I have a boyfriend ( wich I dont and if I did it aint his problem) That I have a sexual relationship with one of my bestfriends husband (wich they laugh about me 2 ) but Iam scared cause he really really belivs in it himself.. ITS SICK,, ITS NOT NORMAL,,AND I HATE IT!

IN HERE

SMACK MY PUNANE!!

SMACK IT!! SMACK IT HIGH ,,SMACK IT LOW,,SMACK IT EVERYWAY IT GO!

whats freedom for me?

to be able to do whatever I want without thinkin about cash, other people, or work..Just being FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEE..

so what have happen

I still waiting for that shit so he cant contact me or threat me..
but it takes time.. and Iam hell of worries what gonna happen when he get it?? we'll see...we'll see

this one is so YEAH! this song was played for 3 day & nights..and we were crazy in it! the video is OK..

look at this people..looooool.. this is my sister Alexandra and my baby Esmeralda

This is my true LOVE

my kids!

JUSTIFY MY LOVE..

if I could use one word to describe you

it would be ... INTERESTING

I have realized

that I aint taking life and stuff in it as just a game .. I have always done that dont take the life so serious.. but now lately I have been like reborn into the reality that I aint so young anymore even though I aint old ..
I must be more serious and I must be focused.. Focused on whats the most important in my life and dont even bother so much about whats best for everyone else.. And by this I aint meaning that I give up to care about others cause that aint working Iam just like that as aperson..
I mean someone else aint gonna screw over me again,, change me,, make me do stuff that dont belong to what I want in my heart.. Life is just to important that I cant always have other people in charge over mine..
Iam ME and I aint gonna change me...accept me for the one Iam or else ..theres the door.. K

hunk of the day ...

Petey Pablo ..SEXXXXXY

iam..

really really BORED!! I wanna go out shake my ass .. but as far as I know here in the little E theres NO good places.. not with my kinda music.. I wanna dance like a crazy biatch but right now just sittin home being BORED..
YES I used to go out but now I just feel that its bore me.. The little E is just to little.. I wanna go to some big place I wanna go to NYC!! thats wassup.. pay my tickets someone and I'll go ! I would definately!

what comes around goes around

YO MAMA!!!

black & white.. this is memories

if I could use one word to describe you

it would be ... AMAZING